Apparently I'm loud and angry

Remember Hamid, The New Boy? I like him and think he shows tremendous potential. But he's still junior, and he confuses activity with accomplishment. He doesn't give the creative team time to think. He wants answers and solutions and he wants them by end of day.

Tuesday afternoon, he expected too much too fast. He wanted me to decide how to repaginate a six-page brochure about investing in annuities -- a complicated subject -- and he wanted me to do it off the top of my head. I called the art director over and involved her, because I can't/shouldn't do everything. The three of us hammered out a solution, but there was bruising.

Today, Hamid reported with some amusement that one of the work friends asked why I was so "loud and angry." He told the work friend that if I was loud and angry, the friend had best never work in Dubai, where my manner would seem subdued.

I'm glad Hamid wasn't offended by our exchange, but I admit I'm stung by being considered "loud and angry." With open seating there are no offices and I have no privacy, no place to think, and I admit it wears on me. Plus I have to fight for quality and the integrity of our creative product.

Or maybe I'm good with it. Maybe I like being badass. Must keep turning this over in my head before I come to a conclusion.