Wednesday, October 06, 2010

I Want Wednesday

I want to win tonight's Illinois State Lottery. It's up to $5.2 million. After taxes, that's $2,500/week for 20 years. I'd be very happy with that.

No, change "happy" to "content and secure." For as my best friend has said, money problems are seldom about money. And when I worry about money, it's not the cash that scares me. It's the feelings of vulnerability that worrying about money inspires. I'm confident I'll always eat. But it's feeling like no one has my back, that I'm fighting this battle all alone that I hate.

Which winning the lottery would settle once and for all. So keep your fingers crossed for me!