Thursday, September 13, 2012

My mom died

At about 2:30 this morning. I guess she had a heart attack. It doesn't actually matter, as long as it was peaceful and I'm assured it was. I think she was just tired of being sick.

I am very numb and very tired and I know I will miss her enormously. But right now I keep hearing this Carly Simon song in my head ...

Can you clear up the mystery of the Sphinx?
Do you know any more about God?
Are you dancing with Benjamin Franklin
On the face of the moon?
Have you reconciled with Dad?
Does the rain still make you sad?
Last night I swear I could feel you
Moving through my room
And I thought you touched my feet
I so wanted it to be true
And in my theater there is a stage
And a footlight you can always step into...
I'll wait no more for you like a daughter,
That part of our life together is over
But I will wait for you, forever
Like a river...

In the river I know I will find the key

And your voice will rise like the spray
In the moment of knowing
The tide will wash away my doubt
'Cause you're already home
Making it nice for when I come home
Like the way I find my bed turned down
Coming in from a late night out.
Please keep reminding me
Of what in my soul I know is true


  1. I'm so sorry, Gal. I know this has been a trying time for her and you. I know this song well. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  2. Oh Gal, I am so sorry. I have no words. None. Just know that I am holding you in a loving hug and that I am here if you need to talk, cry or vent. I'm really good with deep, unwieldy emotions and can hold a space for you if you want. ANYTIME.

    Sending you love and peace.

  3. Anonymous12:29 PM

    This (fairly recent, still smarting) orphan sends his sincere condolences.

  4. So sorry for your loss. {{{HUGS}}}

  5. I am so very sorry for your loss. Losing your mom is terribly hard. My condolences.

  6. Oh, Gal, I'm so, so sorry. Please know that I'm thinking about you now, and have you, your mom and your family in my prayers.

  7. Holy Cow- I remember the morning that my mother died. I was numb so I went on with what I had to get done- which was probably a good plan since I had to take off for Fla to take care of her things. I think about her every day.
    I'm sorry for your loss. Hang in there.

  8. I've been a quiet reader for many years, Gal. I'm so sorry for your loss. You're in my heart and thoughts today.

  9. Anonymous3:38 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. You don't know me, I just came here from Thursday have my condolences.

  10. Oh, honey, I am SO sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts. I know we only know each other through our blogs, but believe me when I say, please email me, and if I can help in any way, I will. {{{{{hugs}}}}}

  11. i am in shock...i didn't think she was that sick! i am so sorry and praying for God to give you comfort during this time of mourning...much love and big hugs!

  12. Oh, I am so, so very sorry. Please know I'm sending you much love.

  13. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Sending warm thoughts for you and your family.

  14. I just sent an email to you. So shocked to read this and so sorry for your terrible loss.

    Thank you for sharing her with us on your blog and tenderly speaking of your times with her. I know you will get through this in time. But I will say to you now what you said to me when I lost my dad, "Take gentle with yourself." It was good advice and I always remembered that phrase throughout.

    Sending love and hugs.

    From me and all peace bloggers at large....I will keep an eye on you. You have many friends here who love and support you. Remember that.

  15. Anonymous9:28 PM

    Oh Gal, I'm so very very sorry to hear this! You and your mom had a somewhat complicated relationship, but I know how much she meant to you. Sending peaceful thoughts to you and your family.

    - BookMama

  16. wow, sorry to hear. it's never a good time for a parent to die, for those around. take gentle care of you.

  17. Anonymous6:20 PM

    Oh my gosh, I am so, so sorry.

  18. Anonymous12:01 AM

    I'm very sorry for your loss. Please take good care of yourself, and I hope you have people nearby who can be with you and be of help.

  19. Anonymous6:23 AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Definitely NOT the news I expected to hear. Take care of yourself.