Wednesday, September 26, 2012

I Want Wednesday

I want to be fully awake! I haven't felt completely in the moment since the night I went to see BROOOOCE, weeks ago. And even then, it was only during the concert itself.

Ever since my mom got sick over Labor Day weekend, I have been exhausted. I thought it was because I'm sleeping well, but I don't think that's it. I think maybe it's grief and stress.

I want to move along, move forward. But it hasn't even been a full month. My mind, heart and body have to do what they have to do to feel and process my mother's illness and death. I can pray and I can contemplate, but I can't speed it up. As my best friend keeps reminding me, I must take care of myself.


  1. Be gentle with yourself.

  2. sending peaceful thoughts

  3. Anonymous2:22 PM

    I agree....give yourself a break....don't expect too much too soon. It's not so different from healing from your surgery. It takes time and patience and work. You'll get to the place you need to be.

  4. Anonymous8:13 PM

    When my Mommom passed away, I felt as though I was not there for months. I would literally have to go back and reread my blog from that period to remember what I did. I think the only thing I truly remember after her passing was going to a concert of my favorite band four months after.