Sometimes I really hate myself

This is not my home. You know how you can tell? I don't have a treadmill.

Really, my living room and den are such a mess. My living room mess is perpetual. My den has been in disarray since I had to take all the books off the shelves back in 2016. 2016!

I had left Sunday open to do housework. To make a dent in the mess. And I didn't. You know what I did instead? Nothing.

I have to get the living room decluttered and the bathroom clean by 9:00 AM Tuesday, 8/22. That's when the first of two contractors is coming over to check out the bathroom and give me estimates for renovation.

Then I have to get the den elevated to at least presentable by the time I have the work done in October.

Why is this so hard for me? Cleaning up after oneself is something other people do rather effortlessly.

Sometimes I miss being in therapy. Sometimes I really hate myself.

August Happiness Challenge -- Day 12

Today's happiness: 16 jars of Gerber Turkey baby food. It's the best, easiest way to get Connie her meds. The Viralysis mixes so well and the turkey flavor and scent just appeal to her. Connie is a picky eater, and I spend a great deal of time worrying about our supply.

You think your local CVS has a wide selection of baby items? They don't carry Gerber meats at all. Only larger Walgreen's and Target stores carry it, and they're often out of turkey and only have chicken. (Connie doesn't like chicken.) Last week I went to Mariano's grocery store and they had jar after jar of ham (Connie doesn't like ham) but only one jar of turkey left. I was starting to panic.

I stopped at a massive grocery store on my way to movie group Saturday night and stocked up. (Yeah, I was approximately 5 minutes late but this is Connie we're talking about.) And Sunday I jus so happened to hit my local Target when they still had turkey on the shelf.

16 jars!

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Each day in August you are to post about something that makes *you* happy. Pretty simple. And, it doesn't even have to be every day if you don't want it to be. It's a great way to remind ourselves that there are positive things going on in our lives, our communities, and the world.