Sunday, April 10, 2016

Sunday Stealing

Ask Ask Ask Meme

1 -If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with? Tom Hanks. He has experience with this.

2 - What do you feel right now? Lazy


3 - What chocolate is your favorite? Mint chocolate chip ice cream

4 - Why did you create a blog account? It's my online diary

5 - Who is your favorite blogger? The one I read most often is Kwizgiver.

6 - When was the last time you cried? Why? I cried a lot when I said my final goodbye to Joey. He was a wonderful cat and it was a privilege to know him.


7 - Who is your best friend? Whom I turn to depends on the circumstance

8 - What kind of music do you listen to? I'm a Baby Boomer. I like the oldies.

9 - Do you have troubles sleeping at night?
Sometimes

10 - What do you prefer, jeans or shorts? What's the weather?

11 - Did you try to change for a person?
Yes. It didn't work. (It never does.)

12 - Are you in a good or bad mood?
I'm in a good mood right now. Absent an irritant, I'm usually in a good mood.


13 - Name someone you can’t live without. Cubs manager Joe Maddon. I've put all my hopes and faith in him. This could be the year!


14 - Do you have a grudge against anyone?
Yes. I'm not proud of this, but that's the truth.

15 - Are you a crybaby? No

16 - When people praise you for your looks, what feature do they praise? My green eyes.

17 - What hair color do you prefer? On myself or on the opposite sex? I tend to be more attracted to men with dark hair.

18 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it?
My chins. I'd like one fewer.

19 - Can you live without internet?   Yes, but not happily.

20 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical? No.

21 - Did you have an accident last year? I twisted my ankle while running for the bus.

22 - What are you thinking right now? That my skin feels a little dry.

23 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel?
Yes

24 - Do you have trust issues?
Yes

25 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love
? Not a one. I'm blessed with many long-term friendships, and they all flood in.

26 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be
? Not always. For example, you shouldn't gulp a fist full or barbiturates and then swig a bottle of Jack Daniels and assume you'll be safe because "it's not my time."

27 - Do you believe in destiny? To some degree. I believe God created each of us and He has a plan. But we each have free will.

28 - How do you look right now?
Messy

29 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough?
24/7/365

30 - Favorite city? The one I'm in. It's a toddlin' town.




And there's still more

Our conversations are different now. They all seem to revolve around our health troubles.

So far, 2017 has been The Year of One Gal's Gut. Whenever my friends and I get together, my c. diff comes up.

Then there's John's ongoing creaks and aches and pains. He just can't move like he used to. He has trouble with ramps and stairs -- he gets winded going up and down is hard on his knees. In January, when we went to the Cubs Convention, we found ourselves sitting on the floor and he had a difficult time getting up.

Barb has cancer. Kathleen's and Ed's cancers are in remission. So is Ed's daughter's leukemia.

Today I just learned that my friend Mindy is putting her 85+ mother in hospice. Last month, Mindy's husband had an angioplasty.

My oldest friend continues to suffer from depression, and anxiety, and heart trouble. (Which reminds me: I have to call her.)

At 58, I'm the baby of my circle of friends. So all of this reminds me of Nora Ephron's quote about what happens when you turn 60 and your thoughts suddenly turn to mortality.




His face looks fuller

Had lunch with my nephew on Saturday. We did not talk about how poorly he's doing in school,* or that he's been feeling suicidal, or he is seeing his second psychiatrist and first therapist, or that the anti-depressants he'd been taking made him gain weight.

We talked about Bernie Sanders and his girlfriend Anna. He's known Anna since pre-school, so I didn't need any introduction to her. What I heard is that this summer, she's volunteering at the local zoo and he's hoping to spend his days at the animal shelter.

And we ate a prodigious amount of fries and ketchup.

I felt better for having seen him. I thought he was happy to see me. I don't know many teenage boys who would willingly spend 90 minutes on a Saturday afternoon with their old fart aunt.



*By his standards, not the school's or his parent's. He has a 2.3-2.7 GPA.