I miss my mother. But only selfishly.
Now she is in Heaven. Healthy and whole and reunited with her baby brother (my uncle) and my dad. My parents had a difficult marriage in its final decades but I know they loved one another once and am convinced that now, in Heaven, they are restored to when they were at their best, and together.
I had a lover who didn't believe in the afterlife and told me it was a crutch. If that's true, well, it's a crutch I lean heavily on right now.
Except it's not true. My mom is in Heaven, sitting on the arm of my dad's recliner with her head in his neck, or laughing at one of my uncle's ridiculous puns.
I may be lonely and hurting but she is at peace. And that is God's greatest gift.
These are the thoughts and observations of me — a woman of a certain age. (Oh, my, God, I'm 65!) I'm single. I'm successful enough (independent, self supporting). I live just outside Chicago, the best city in the world. I'm an aunt and a friend. I feel that voices like mine are rather underrepresented online or in print. So here I am. If my musings resonate with you, please visit my blog again sometime.
As someone who has conversed with those in the afterlife many times, I can affirm what you said, Gal.
ReplyDeleteWhen we transition out of the physical, we are, indeed, free, whole and at peace.
I just recommended two books to a client who was wondering what happens when we leave the earth plane and I'll mention them here as well in case you are interested: "Matthew, Tell Me About Heaven" (great book) and "Conversations with Jerry and other people I thought were dead" (excellent book also)
I wish I could do more bring you comfort than to write words on a screen. Sending hugs through the virtual world to you.
i agree.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your mom passing!
ReplyDeleteStill thinking of you and wishing you peace.
ReplyDeleteSending you lots of love.
ReplyDeleteYou're entirely right.
ReplyDeleteThinking about you.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and praying you are doing okay...and that the sisters are stepping in to help you. Praying for everyone to get beyond themselves and thinking how much your mom loved you all and would want you to work together to honor her.
ReplyDeletekeeping you close to my heart Gal!!