Has anybody seen my sense of Zen?

I had it throughout the week of my vacation. I even had it Monday and yesterday. But today? It's GONE!

Instead of working out, I'm having pizza, Coke and a chocolate chip cookie for lunch. And waiting, waiting and waiting for the work we're presenting tomorrow to go through the approval channels. And fixating on how I believe we're concentrating our resources on the wrong part of the presentation.

I must stop this. I have to stop subsisting on sugar and caffeine and worrying about that which isn't my responsibility. Yes, I'm presenting tomorrow. But so are two vice presidents. I have to learn to let go and let them take the reins.

Remember the movie Broadcast News? At times like this I can be very much like Jane (Holly Hunter). Her boss admonishes her, "It must be nice to always think you know best, to always be the smartest one in the room." "No," she replies in all sincerity, "it's awful."

If I remain in Jane mode, my sense of Zen shall never return.