Color me confused

As I have written many a time, I am worried about my job stability. Between reorganization at my client's offices, which will change their needs, and a merger between the agency network I work for and our arch rival, the ground beneath my feet feels anything but solid. We have gone months without enough work to really support the three creative teams we have assigned to the account.

I figured that if there were to be lay-offs, they would happen on or around August 15. Middle of the quarter, that's when the corporation likes to do it. For some reason it makes it easier for their bookkeeping.

Now, as August 15 approaches, we have been preparing for a major new project. Tuesday we devoted 90 days to a pre-meeting, discussing timing and resources. I suppose under other circumstances the scope might sound daunting, but I have been so eager to show how much I can do, and how well, that I am nothing but enthusiastic.

EXCEPT ... my friend Tom had meetings scheduled for that entire day back in February (middle of the quarter), when he was let go.

So I want to relax, but I'm afraid to.