Maybe it's because my first week back from vacation was pretty rough. Maybe it's because holidays tend to make me a little more introspective than usual. Maybe it's because the Cubs lost to the Brewers. But tonight, I'm filled with longing, an ache for things I can't have.
I want …
• My mom to be young again.
• To have someone who loves me, romantically loves me, that I can have good, clean, dirty fun in bed with.
• My former size 6 body.
• A pretty face.
• To know when the Recession will be over.
• To convince everyone to adopt shelter pets.
• Just a half-hour more with my grandpa. Just 30 more minutes.
• To have more and need less (of everything).
I know, I know. I have been blessed with much in life and I really am grateful. But still, I want ...
These are the thoughts and observations of me — a woman of a certain age. (Oh, my, God, I'm 65!) I'm single. I'm successful enough (independent, self supporting). I live just outside Chicago, the best city in the world. I'm an aunt and a friend. I feel that voices like mine are rather underrepresented online or in print. So here I am. If my musings resonate with you, please visit my blog again sometime.
All of those wants & needs are normal feelings. We all have them, knowing we are blessed beyond what we deserve.
ReplyDeleteJust remember, this is a temporary home, look to God...and know we can have a home in heaven. It will be beyond "belief".
This world is here to give a longing... and to long for something better...it "can" be possible. (Deut 4:29)
Hope you don't mind a little spiritual uplifting...I get excited about knowing God has something better coming. Yes, we will have to pass on to get the reward...but then...we all know...life ends.
On another note, I have a rescue dog...she is the best. She was about 5 when I adopted her...and it took her many years to trust other. Now is very sociable....
Even tho we have never met I know you are a great person, and I truly believe God has a plan...and I am praying...he will bless you and show his love to you in an answered prayer.
Keep the faith sister!
Love ya bunches!
Oh girlfriend, I hear ya. I couldn't have an easier life if I tried but still ... I long for certain things I don't have but really want. We are truly sistahs of the heart.
ReplyDeleteNo advice, just a shared recognition of our humanness.
Love you.
I think this post was honest and very special. Have a great weekend...
ReplyDeleteWe share many of the same yearnings. I think many of them are normal human desires, and the normal desires of people of a certain age. Some are uniquely your own. They're part of what makes you, you.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you're processing a lot right now--and it's overwhelming. I'm sending you good vibes!
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