Ever since I was a little girl and my parents took me downtown to see Mary Poppins, I have loved movies. I adore the entire movie-going experience -- everything from buying my movie food (sweets eaten only in a theater, usually Twizzlers or Sno-Caps) to choosing my seat to the anonymity-in-a-public-place sensation of sitting in the dark surrounded by strangers.
Since going to the movies is one of the enduring joys of my life, it makes sense that I'd see my life as a film. Starring me, of course. But then I get thinking of all the tiny character parts there would be. Like in The Godfather, there was Nino Ruggeri as "Mobster at the funeral with Barzini." You've seen The Godfather a million times, but admit it, you don't remember "Mobster at the funeral with Barzini," do you? Still, those who play these bit parts add to the texture and success of the film.
Likewise, my life wouldn't be the same life without my bit players. So today we're taking one from "Mobster at the funeral with Barzini"-style obscurity and making him a star.
And that would be Joe from The Help Desk.
I use this company-owned laptop for a lot of personal business. Like playing Pogo while watching TV at home. I love this laptop. Last night my modem simply would not connect. I was at wit's end, imagining my Pogo scores for the week dipping into the gutter. Then this morning, when I got into the office, I was unable to log onto my Lotus Notes. Without the Internet, this job has even less meaning than it normally does. So I called Joe from the Help Desk.
That's actually not what we're supposed to do when we have a computer problem here. We're supposed to call the Help Desk's main number, leave a brief explanation of our problem on voicemail, and then wait to be called back. Then a random Help Desk wizard will ask for more detail and open a job ticket. When your job ticket moves to the front of the line, your problem will be addressed. It's all very fair: each problem is addressed in the order in which it is received.
That would be OK if we were all created equal. But we aren't. This is the story of my life, which means I'm the star. So I call Joe directly.
Joe and I got to know each other when I got my iPod and he had to keep initializing each iTunes upgrade for me. We first met when I followed procedure, and quickly discovered that while some Help Desk wizards find my asking for iTunes help annoying when there is agency business to address, Joe found my complete audacity charming. So now I go to him directly.
Today I didn't even have to bring my laptop to him. He made a housecall. I think he just wanted to stretch his legs. He's wearing gauze and tape on his thumb, so I solicitously asked him about it. Help Desk guys don't get fussed over or flirted with much, and let's face it, fussing and flirting is one of the benefits of working in a big office.
He fixed my modem issues in no time and didn't make me feel stupid for doing whatever it was I did that screwed up the settings. So here's to you, Joe. You're pleasant, you're nice, you're very capable, and you're one of the bit players in my life story that made this rainy Wednesday suck a little less. Your leading lady thanks you, Joe from the Help Desk.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Well, that was a let down
Because I was such a passionate (some would say "rabid") supporter of Senator Kerry's, some people insist I hate George W. Bush. That's not true. I wasn't against him in 2004, I was FOR Senator Kerry. I followed my heart, I didn't dedicate myself to that campaign out of hate or fear but out of hope. We lost, my heart is broken, but we try to move on. I don't enjoy it when W. screws up. He is, after all, my president.
And last night I needed him.
I wanted him to say something about 9/11 and the WTC, the Pentagon and United #93 that would help me heal. Something I understood, something that reflected who we are as people, something that expressed what it means to be an American.
Ronald Reagan got it. He knew that's what a president needs to do, what a president needs to be. I was never a supporter of his, but I still remember his phrase about the Challenger astronauts, "They slipped the surly bonds of earth to touch the face of God." That speech was just a few minutes long, but it touched me. He was sincere (I know, he was an actor, but I'm still not cynical enough to believe that was acting) and his speech was poetic, soothing and beautiful.
Bill Clinton got it. I remember his press conference after Oklahoma City. He spoke of our children, of the impact images of violence at a daycare center may have them, and asked parents to remind the young ones that most adults are good and ready to protect them. Metaphorically, Bill Clinton was letting all of us know our government is basically good, and ready to protect us.
I needed George W. Bush to get it. To rise to the occasion. To deliver a speech that reflected 5 years of reflection.
Instead I got a political speech that he could have given last week or next. It was a justification of his policies and his decisions.
I'm a grown woman. Perhaps I shouldn't need a daddy figure behind a shiny desk to assuage my aching heart. But I do. I wish I was the polarized Republican-hater people assume I must be. If I was, I wouldn't have expected better from this president, and I wouldn't feel even emptier today, after the anniversary of 9/11.
And last night I needed him.
I wanted him to say something about 9/11 and the WTC, the Pentagon and United #93 that would help me heal. Something I understood, something that reflected who we are as people, something that expressed what it means to be an American.
Ronald Reagan got it. He knew that's what a president needs to do, what a president needs to be. I was never a supporter of his, but I still remember his phrase about the Challenger astronauts, "They slipped the surly bonds of earth to touch the face of God." That speech was just a few minutes long, but it touched me. He was sincere (I know, he was an actor, but I'm still not cynical enough to believe that was acting) and his speech was poetic, soothing and beautiful.
Bill Clinton got it. I remember his press conference after Oklahoma City. He spoke of our children, of the impact images of violence at a daycare center may have them, and asked parents to remind the young ones that most adults are good and ready to protect them. Metaphorically, Bill Clinton was letting all of us know our government is basically good, and ready to protect us.
I needed George W. Bush to get it. To rise to the occasion. To deliver a speech that reflected 5 years of reflection.
Instead I got a political speech that he could have given last week or next. It was a justification of his policies and his decisions.
I'm a grown woman. Perhaps I shouldn't need a daddy figure behind a shiny desk to assuage my aching heart. But I do. I wish I was the polarized Republican-hater people assume I must be. If I was, I wouldn't have expected better from this president, and I wouldn't feel even emptier today, after the anniversary of 9/11.
I may start seeing other hosts
Vox and Wordpress are making serious plays for my blog. I like blogger.com well enough. But it's fun to be wooed ...
Monday, September 11, 2006
Appalled, yet jealous, too
One of my coworkers, a gal with a very big personality, was talking about the impact rainy days like today have on her. She said she just wanted to be in bed, watching daytime TV.
Not today, I said. I explained how at the health club today, every TV screen showed heartbreaking images.
"Why? What's today? Is it September 11 already?"
So there are people who don't have it seared on their souls.
Not today, I said. I explained how at the health club today, every TV screen showed heartbreaking images.
"Why? What's today? Is it September 11 already?"
So there are people who don't have it seared on their souls.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Escape into the world of gangsters -- with an "r"
Angels with Dirty Faces is on. This is a terrific old Warner Bros. gangster flick, complete with Cagney AND Bogart and Pat O'Brien as a priest as handy with his fists as he is with his Bible because he was a hoodlum himself once. The camera loved Cagney. I know it's a cliche, but you should see what I'm looking at. Even in luscious black and white, I know his eyes are blue. And he moves with such effortless, yet essentially male, grace. I know he was a dancer, and it shows. He's a very bad man in this movie (when it came out in 1938, it was banned in some countries for glorifying mobsters) but a fabulously charismatic one. I am grateful to On Demand for offering it tonight.
Because I simply cannot watch another show about 9/11.
Five years ago tomorrow I was working in the same building as the Israeli consulate. Chicago is in the CST zone, so the fear was planes were going to hit us at 9:00, too, an hour after the WTC and Pentagon were hit. And the authorities didn't want anyone near the Israeli consulate that day. We were escorted out of the building under yellow police tape. I have never been so scared in my life. All the major trains out of the city travel through the shadow of Sears Tower. I never noticed that before 9/11/01.
My first job was in Sears Tower. On a clear day, I can see it from my front porch. On cloudy days, when it's obscured, it pops into my head, unbidden, that this must be what life is like for New Yorkers who look at their skyline and can no longer see the Towers.
I now work in the third largest building in the city, the AON Tower, formerly the Standard Oil Building. Last month I had to work over the weekend of the Air and Water Show. I very nearly peed the first time one of the Blue Angels came a little close to my office window.
I suspect that the authorities suspect that the trains will be hit next, like in England. Some days there are cops with dogs on el platforms or near the garbage cans in the commuter train stations. Then the next day the cops and dogs are gone. No one discusses it, but we all know why they're there. (An unintentional benefit of the war on terror -- crime is down on the el these days.)
9/11 crosses my mind every day, at least once a day. Maybe it's fleeting, maybe it's more thoughtful. (I often think of those gallant NYPD dogs, working long hours, day after day, cutting their paws as they searched and dug with their noses to the rubble; they didn't do it because of ideology or agenda or because they "love freedom," as W would say. They did it because their humans asked them to. I like dogs better than people.) Political pundits say Mayor Daley may be vulnerable this time, that he may actually find himself in a real race for re-election. For Christ's sake, people, think of New Orleans! If there's a terrorist attack here, we want Mayor Richard M. Daley right where he is, in City Hall. The thought of anyone else at the helm if anything happens fills me with dread.
I most emphatically don't need these documentaries and talk shows to bring those days back. Those days are still with me today. If I let them, they will tug at my heart and my imagination until I can't think of anything else. What purpose would that serve?
So let me enjoy Cagney as Rocky Sullivan instead.
Because I simply cannot watch another show about 9/11.
Five years ago tomorrow I was working in the same building as the Israeli consulate. Chicago is in the CST zone, so the fear was planes were going to hit us at 9:00, too, an hour after the WTC and Pentagon were hit. And the authorities didn't want anyone near the Israeli consulate that day. We were escorted out of the building under yellow police tape. I have never been so scared in my life. All the major trains out of the city travel through the shadow of Sears Tower. I never noticed that before 9/11/01.
My first job was in Sears Tower. On a clear day, I can see it from my front porch. On cloudy days, when it's obscured, it pops into my head, unbidden, that this must be what life is like for New Yorkers who look at their skyline and can no longer see the Towers.
I now work in the third largest building in the city, the AON Tower, formerly the Standard Oil Building. Last month I had to work over the weekend of the Air and Water Show. I very nearly peed the first time one of the Blue Angels came a little close to my office window.
I suspect that the authorities suspect that the trains will be hit next, like in England. Some days there are cops with dogs on el platforms or near the garbage cans in the commuter train stations. Then the next day the cops and dogs are gone. No one discusses it, but we all know why they're there. (An unintentional benefit of the war on terror -- crime is down on the el these days.)
9/11 crosses my mind every day, at least once a day. Maybe it's fleeting, maybe it's more thoughtful. (I often think of those gallant NYPD dogs, working long hours, day after day, cutting their paws as they searched and dug with their noses to the rubble; they didn't do it because of ideology or agenda or because they "love freedom," as W would say. They did it because their humans asked them to. I like dogs better than people.) Political pundits say Mayor Daley may be vulnerable this time, that he may actually find himself in a real race for re-election. For Christ's sake, people, think of New Orleans! If there's a terrorist attack here, we want Mayor Richard M. Daley right where he is, in City Hall. The thought of anyone else at the helm if anything happens fills me with dread.
I most emphatically don't need these documentaries and talk shows to bring those days back. Those days are still with me today. If I let them, they will tug at my heart and my imagination until I can't think of anything else. What purpose would that serve?
So let me enjoy Cagney as Rocky Sullivan instead.
Attention, Lurkers: This One's for You
I know I have lurkers and I welcome you. After all, there are blogs I visit on the sly myself. But it occurs to me that you lurkers know nothing about me except for my excessive devotion to Greg Maddux and Sir Paul McCartney.
So here's a little dossier about me. And if you ever feel comfortable doing so, let me know a little something about you, too.
1. I prefer hotdogs to burgers, thin crust to pan pizza, Coke to Pepsi, light beer to wine.
2. In my dreams, I sing like Barbra Streisand.
3. When I fly, it's an aisle seat or nothing.
4. I've never had heartburn in my life.
5. My hair is short and red (Nice & Easy #110).
6. My favorite color is blue. Cubbie blue.
7. It's sad and annoying but true: I have never attended a wedding escorted by a date. Not by design. Just never happened to be going out with anyone whenever a wedding rolled around. Maybe this is why I hate weddings.
8. I don't know why, but gay men and I have an affinity for one another. (This occurs to me because I usually end up dragging a gay friend to weddings.)
9. I can't cook, but I am a wizard at doing laundry.
10. I'm a news junkie, and thank the Lord for cable and a 24-hour news cycle.
So here's a little dossier about me. And if you ever feel comfortable doing so, let me know a little something about you, too.
1. I prefer hotdogs to burgers, thin crust to pan pizza, Coke to Pepsi, light beer to wine.
2. In my dreams, I sing like Barbra Streisand.
3. When I fly, it's an aisle seat or nothing.
4. I've never had heartburn in my life.
5. My hair is short and red (Nice & Easy #110).
6. My favorite color is blue. Cubbie blue.
7. It's sad and annoying but true: I have never attended a wedding escorted by a date. Not by design. Just never happened to be going out with anyone whenever a wedding rolled around. Maybe this is why I hate weddings.
8. I don't know why, but gay men and I have an affinity for one another. (This occurs to me because I usually end up dragging a gay friend to weddings.)
9. I can't cook, but I am a wizard at doing laundry.
10. I'm a news junkie, and thank the Lord for cable and a 24-hour news cycle.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Women I Love to Hate
This morning I watched a documentary ("Headliners and Legends") about Betty Broderick. I hate her. I know this because I have seen that same documentary almost a dozen times. I have seen the Meredith Baxter/Stephen Collins made-for-TV movies about Betty over and over again, too. I even read a book about her case. Which is how I know I hate her. To the uninitiated, Betty is the dumb, self-centered bitch who in 1989 shot her ex and his new wife as they slept in their beds, and somehow still claims she was "abused." She is an insult to abused women everywhere, women whose exhusbands are deadbeat dads who don't pay their former wives tens of thousands of dollars every month, who threaten their wives' safety, instead of the other way around. Self-destructive, whiny narcissist has the chutzpah to present herself as some sort of feminist martyr. My blood pressure is rising as I write this. I hate her.
I also hate Kathie Lee Gifford. She is so goofy, so self-congratulatory, such a schmaltzy throwback to another phonier time, that she literally makes my teeth hurt. Yet I am transfixed every time one of her segments comes on The Insider.
I hate Madonna, too. She is less an artist than a savvy marketer, reinventing herself regularly to make a buck. Her product is as sincere and as expressive as a $3 bill. The bisexual leather-wearing dominatrix who sang about "hanky panky, nothing like a good spanky" somehow became a Burberry-clad children's book author with a faux English accent. Shudder.
I hate Angelina Jolie. I am strictly Team Aniston. Angelina is our generation's Liz Taylor. Except back in the 1950s, Liz proudly and boldly was what she was -- a man-eating carnivore. None of this, "Love me cuz of my work with poor" shit for Liz. I believe that Brangelina spend so much time in Africa to avoid the paparazzi and to try to rehabilitate their tattered images. (Damn you, Brad, you were supposed to be Jen's lobster!) Liz and Dick had the integrity to decadently throw around scads of cash on diamonds and yachts. (Though I am gratified to see that Brad Pitt has belatedly discovered that there are poor people here in the States, too.) Also, back in the 1950s Liz was more beautiful and a better actress that AJ.
I read about these women, I watch TV coverage about their antics. Just so I can hate them.
But you understand it, don't you? It's the same impulse that forces you to keep sticking your tongue into your cavity, even though it kinda hurts.
I also hate Kathie Lee Gifford. She is so goofy, so self-congratulatory, such a schmaltzy throwback to another phonier time, that she literally makes my teeth hurt. Yet I am transfixed every time one of her segments comes on The Insider.
I hate Madonna, too. She is less an artist than a savvy marketer, reinventing herself regularly to make a buck. Her product is as sincere and as expressive as a $3 bill. The bisexual leather-wearing dominatrix who sang about "hanky panky, nothing like a good spanky" somehow became a Burberry-clad children's book author with a faux English accent. Shudder.
I hate Angelina Jolie. I am strictly Team Aniston. Angelina is our generation's Liz Taylor. Except back in the 1950s, Liz proudly and boldly was what she was -- a man-eating carnivore. None of this, "Love me cuz of my work with poor" shit for Liz. I believe that Brangelina spend so much time in Africa to avoid the paparazzi and to try to rehabilitate their tattered images. (Damn you, Brad, you were supposed to be Jen's lobster!) Liz and Dick had the integrity to decadently throw around scads of cash on diamonds and yachts. (Though I am gratified to see that Brad Pitt has belatedly discovered that there are poor people here in the States, too.) Also, back in the 1950s Liz was more beautiful and a better actress that AJ.
I read about these women, I watch TV coverage about their antics. Just so I can hate them.
But you understand it, don't you? It's the same impulse that forces you to keep sticking your tongue into your cavity, even though it kinda hurts.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
What I've Learned Today
We are approaching the third solid week where I've had little or nothing to do at work. At first I really enjoyed it. During my tenure here I've put in plenty of overtime, so I felt this was my cosmic due.
Then I felt a bit unsettled. How long can they continue to pay me for doing nothing? And worse, how bitchy and resentful will I be when an assignment finally rolls in and they expect me to (EWW!) work?
This week I've moved on to the third phase of being underutilized: bored. I'm actually pissed that I got up on time this morning to sit here and do nothing. I feel like the ballplayer who demands, "Play me or trade me."
So what have I learned? That if I have to come to this house of horror, I'd rather have something to do once I arrive.
Tomorrow we have a project kick off! Hurray! Work! Of course I'll have to remind everyone to be careful about due dates and scheduling presentations, since my boss did indeed approve my vacation request form for the 20th through the 23rd. When I head out west to (hopefully) see my beloved Greg Maddux and (even better) old what's his name. I'm not telling my coworkers the truth, of course. They have no idea that I'm going to LA to spend two nights with my best friend. Since they all knew him well (after all, he used to work here) I do delight at thinking of their faces. I'm not doing it, though. I may be perverse but I'm not stupid.
Then I felt a bit unsettled. How long can they continue to pay me for doing nothing? And worse, how bitchy and resentful will I be when an assignment finally rolls in and they expect me to (EWW!) work?
This week I've moved on to the third phase of being underutilized: bored. I'm actually pissed that I got up on time this morning to sit here and do nothing. I feel like the ballplayer who demands, "Play me or trade me."
So what have I learned? That if I have to come to this house of horror, I'd rather have something to do once I arrive.
Tomorrow we have a project kick off! Hurray! Work! Of course I'll have to remind everyone to be careful about due dates and scheduling presentations, since my boss did indeed approve my vacation request form for the 20th through the 23rd. When I head out west to (hopefully) see my beloved Greg Maddux and (even better) old what's his name. I'm not telling my coworkers the truth, of course. They have no idea that I'm going to LA to spend two nights with my best friend. Since they all knew him well (after all, he used to work here) I do delight at thinking of their faces. I'm not doing it, though. I may be perverse but I'm not stupid.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
It makes me sooo tired
Today was the annual agency/client softball game. I hated every hot, sunny moment. I have such a hard time with small talk. I can't talk about chunky jewelry with virtual strangers. When I am presenting my work, I am glib and quick and passionate. But when it comes to chit chat, I am terrified. I am so glad it's over for a year.
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
What reflects "the Real Laurie?"
I have acquiesced to be photographed for this year's church directory. I did it in 2003 but not 2004 or 2005. The decision is based on how I'm feeling at the moment the invitation arrives. This year I'm still enthusiastic about the coming church year. (I don't recall exactly, but I suspect that by this time in 2004 and 2005 I was already feeling that my fellow congregates were either corny or full of shit.)
The photographer has sent along some helpful tips to make the photo session a success. I am supposed to "consider wardrobe and grooming." Check. I should avoid wearing prints. Check. And I should remember that "props such as Bibles, musical instruments, and etc. are welcome. Household pets are also welcome." The important thing is that the photo should refect "the real me."
Naturally I considered wearing my official home #31 Cub jersey. But the name "Maddux" is on the back, so I'd have to be looking over my shoulder for anyone to see it. And I'm not sure if Cubbie blue pinstripes violate the "no print" rule.
I considered bringing Reynaldo to the shoot. He wouldn't be in the photo, of course, because he would be bouncing off the walls. But he could infuse the shoot with some real energy.
Or maybe I should be photographed with one of my fave rave photos of Sir Paul. Macca is turning out to be the most enduring love of my life.
Or maybe I should stop thinking about this, because I can see my attitude is wandering into that "Everyone here is either corny or full of shit" territory.
The photographer has sent along some helpful tips to make the photo session a success. I am supposed to "consider wardrobe and grooming." Check. I should avoid wearing prints. Check. And I should remember that "props such as Bibles, musical instruments, and etc. are welcome. Household pets are also welcome." The important thing is that the photo should refect "the real me."
Naturally I considered wearing my official home #31 Cub jersey. But the name "Maddux" is on the back, so I'd have to be looking over my shoulder for anyone to see it. And I'm not sure if Cubbie blue pinstripes violate the "no print" rule.
I considered bringing Reynaldo to the shoot. He wouldn't be in the photo, of course, because he would be bouncing off the walls. But he could infuse the shoot with some real energy.
Or maybe I should be photographed with one of my fave rave photos of Sir Paul. Macca is turning out to be the most enduring love of my life.
Or maybe I should stop thinking about this, because I can see my attitude is wandering into that "Everyone here is either corny or full of shit" territory.
Monday, September 04, 2006
My Last 2006 Telethon Post
Because WGN cuts away for the Cubs, the Telethon is still on here in Chicago. Harlem Furniture has promised to double every pledge that's called in locally. I find it comforting that our newscasters can tell us that a "$125 pledge becomes $250!" I would hate to get news about Iraq, Iran, Korea or Lebanon from a bimbo who can't multiply by two.
Jerry has had a higher profile this year than last, and I'm so glad. I think being in Vegas is good for him. He leers at Jan and verbally abuses Ed. He snaps his fingers when he sings. He lets the water dribble out of his mouth when he talks. He wells up when he looks at the tote board. He banters with comedians we thought were dead. In short, he's why I tune in.
I'm not heartless. That little Luke kid who is this year's poster boy has touched me. He's so cute, and he's so into the applause and so hot for Jan and her cleavage (after all, he is 12).
And yes, I've donated. So I can sit here with a clear conscience as I am amused, horrified and aghast yet again by the spectacle of old Jer singing "You'll Never Walk Alone" yet again to children who will never walk at all.
Jerry has had a higher profile this year than last, and I'm so glad. I think being in Vegas is good for him. He leers at Jan and verbally abuses Ed. He snaps his fingers when he sings. He lets the water dribble out of his mouth when he talks. He wells up when he looks at the tote board. He banters with comedians we thought were dead. In short, he's why I tune in.
I'm not heartless. That little Luke kid who is this year's poster boy has touched me. He's so cute, and he's so into the applause and so hot for Jan and her cleavage (after all, he is 12).
And yes, I've donated. So I can sit here with a clear conscience as I am amused, horrified and aghast yet again by the spectacle of old Jer singing "You'll Never Walk Alone" yet again to children who will never walk at all.
Meet the Gang
Right now I'm surrounded by slumbering felines, and when they're asleep like this, they are just TOO CUTE! So let me introduce these adorable snoozers --
Joey: A big old gray and white tom. (The vet has referred to him as "massive.") He ended up at the local animal shelter at Christmastime, 1998, because the family that owned him could not afford his special diet. (He had recently battled a urinary tract infection.) These folks put him in a box, taped it shut and left him on the shelter doorstep with a note explaining their circumstances. While this exhibited very bad judgement, they undoubtedly gave him a lot of affection because he simply cannot get enough petting. He is especially fond of my nephew, Nick. He also loves other cats. The problem is that he's so much larger than most other cats that he doesn't understand why they don't enjoy wrestling with and being chased by him. Truth to tell, there is a lot in life Joey doesn't understand. I named him after Matt LeBlanc's character on Friends and well, he's aptly named. Joey is as dumb as he is sweet. But in some ways, he is my hero. As long as there is a sliver of sunlight warming the carpet where he can nap, his life is good. I wish I could be as happy and in the moment as old Joe is.
Charlotte Ann: A petite, no-tailed feline who is part Siamese and all diva. She came to me in early 2001 after the shelter caught fire. Little is known about her background because her paperwork was lost in the fire. The vet believes she lost her tail as a young kitten (he suspects the culprit was either a refrigerator or car door). She doesn't accept that she no longer has a tail, gesturing with the healed over stump to register her disgust when I try to shoo her out of the armoire. She is very chatty and very helpful, always nearby when I am putting on makeup or moisturizer, watching me and sharing her opinions. She hates poor Joey. Part of it is the disparity in their sizes. Part of it is that his basic existance offends her. The thing of it is, Joey forgets this and needs to be reminded anew, usually by Charlotte hiding under the furniture and hissing at him.
Reynaldo. Ah, Rey. What can I say about this skinny beige shit? I got him as a kitten back at Thanksgiving 2004. He ended up at the shelter as a stray -- they suppose he snuck out, I bet his owners kicked him out. He is a trial. I enjoy watching him sleep, as he's doing now, because when he's awake he's joyfully, inexhaustibly and imaginatively destructive. I used to chalk this up to his kittenhood, but he's no longer a kitten. The vet assures me that there is nothing wrong with him chemically, yet I don't find this comforting. I wish I could just shove a pill down his gullet and have a docile feline. But no, I have Rey. Who likes to eat books and umbrellas. Who has a vendetta going with every piece of framed artwork in my condo (he leaps at the pieces hanging on the wall, trying to pull them down, and sends the ones with easel backs sailing like hockey pucks off my desk and cabinets). He hangs off drapes. He attacks the thermostat and the light switches. When I'm on the phone, he sings and howls to divert my attention away from the caller and back to him. He steals food off my plate. He has so exhausted me with his noisy, destructive ways that I honestly have considered returning him to shelter. But I haven't and won't. I'm afraid that his next owner would do what I believe his previous owner did -- just kick him out in rage and frustration. So Reynaldo is mine and we will make this work ... somehow. The problem is that he cannot differentiate between good attention and bad attention. All attention, to Rey, is good. As in, "Oh, good! Laurie's going to play that game where she yells at me and hits me!" Or, "Yea! Here comes the water spritzer! I love that!" No matter how loud I yell, he looks at me with the same bright, delighted orange eyes. Nothing frightens or displeases him. Everything makes him happy. There is an upside to this. Joey can toss him across the room in play and Reynaldo loves it. The little boy next door, a toddler, can pull on his ears or tail and Reynaldo loves it. And since nothing scares him, he is the perfect traveling companion when I take Charlotte to the vet. When they're in the carrier together, he senses her discomfort and very compassionately grooms her ears, which calms her down. And he is so filled with love that he is oblivious to my anger. After completely destroying a tower of CDs, he'll come jump on my lap, purring and gazing up into my face.
Joey: A big old gray and white tom. (The vet has referred to him as "massive.") He ended up at the local animal shelter at Christmastime, 1998, because the family that owned him could not afford his special diet. (He had recently battled a urinary tract infection.) These folks put him in a box, taped it shut and left him on the shelter doorstep with a note explaining their circumstances. While this exhibited very bad judgement, they undoubtedly gave him a lot of affection because he simply cannot get enough petting. He is especially fond of my nephew, Nick. He also loves other cats. The problem is that he's so much larger than most other cats that he doesn't understand why they don't enjoy wrestling with and being chased by him. Truth to tell, there is a lot in life Joey doesn't understand. I named him after Matt LeBlanc's character on Friends and well, he's aptly named. Joey is as dumb as he is sweet. But in some ways, he is my hero. As long as there is a sliver of sunlight warming the carpet where he can nap, his life is good. I wish I could be as happy and in the moment as old Joe is.
Charlotte Ann: A petite, no-tailed feline who is part Siamese and all diva. She came to me in early 2001 after the shelter caught fire. Little is known about her background because her paperwork was lost in the fire. The vet believes she lost her tail as a young kitten (he suspects the culprit was either a refrigerator or car door). She doesn't accept that she no longer has a tail, gesturing with the healed over stump to register her disgust when I try to shoo her out of the armoire. She is very chatty and very helpful, always nearby when I am putting on makeup or moisturizer, watching me and sharing her opinions. She hates poor Joey. Part of it is the disparity in their sizes. Part of it is that his basic existance offends her. The thing of it is, Joey forgets this and needs to be reminded anew, usually by Charlotte hiding under the furniture and hissing at him.
Reynaldo. Ah, Rey. What can I say about this skinny beige shit? I got him as a kitten back at Thanksgiving 2004. He ended up at the shelter as a stray -- they suppose he snuck out, I bet his owners kicked him out. He is a trial. I enjoy watching him sleep, as he's doing now, because when he's awake he's joyfully, inexhaustibly and imaginatively destructive. I used to chalk this up to his kittenhood, but he's no longer a kitten. The vet assures me that there is nothing wrong with him chemically, yet I don't find this comforting. I wish I could just shove a pill down his gullet and have a docile feline. But no, I have Rey. Who likes to eat books and umbrellas. Who has a vendetta going with every piece of framed artwork in my condo (he leaps at the pieces hanging on the wall, trying to pull them down, and sends the ones with easel backs sailing like hockey pucks off my desk and cabinets). He hangs off drapes. He attacks the thermostat and the light switches. When I'm on the phone, he sings and howls to divert my attention away from the caller and back to him. He steals food off my plate. He has so exhausted me with his noisy, destructive ways that I honestly have considered returning him to shelter. But I haven't and won't. I'm afraid that his next owner would do what I believe his previous owner did -- just kick him out in rage and frustration. So Reynaldo is mine and we will make this work ... somehow. The problem is that he cannot differentiate between good attention and bad attention. All attention, to Rey, is good. As in, "Oh, good! Laurie's going to play that game where she yells at me and hits me!" Or, "Yea! Here comes the water spritzer! I love that!" No matter how loud I yell, he looks at me with the same bright, delighted orange eyes. Nothing frightens or displeases him. Everything makes him happy. There is an upside to this. Joey can toss him across the room in play and Reynaldo loves it. The little boy next door, a toddler, can pull on his ears or tail and Reynaldo loves it. And since nothing scares him, he is the perfect traveling companion when I take Charlotte to the vet. When they're in the carrier together, he senses her discomfort and very compassionately grooms her ears, which calms her down. And he is so filled with love that he is oblivious to my anger. After completely destroying a tower of CDs, he'll come jump on my lap, purring and gazing up into my face.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
It's worth making only 75¢ on the dollar to not know how this feels
CHICAGO -- Cubs catcher Michael Barrett could miss the rest of the season after he was hit in the groin with a foul tip and underwent surgery.
He will miss at least two to three weeks and was scheduled to be released from Northwestern Memorial Hospital on Sunday, trainer Mark O'Neal said.
Barrett was injured by Matt Cain's foul tip in the fifth inning Saturday. He left the game after batting the next half-inning. Barrett went to the emergency room and an ultrasound showed bleeding inside his scrotum. Surgery took less than an hour, O'Neal said.
"He had enough of a bleed that it needed to be addressed surgically," O'Neal said. "Guys get hit a lot. You see guys get hit and very rarely does it get to this extreme."
He will miss at least two to three weeks and was scheduled to be released from Northwestern Memorial Hospital on Sunday, trainer Mark O'Neal said.
Barrett was injured by Matt Cain's foul tip in the fifth inning Saturday. He left the game after batting the next half-inning. Barrett went to the emergency room and an ultrasound showed bleeding inside his scrotum. Surgery took less than an hour, O'Neal said.
"He had enough of a bleed that it needed to be addressed surgically," O'Neal said. "Guys get hit a lot. You see guys get hit and very rarely does it get to this extreme."
A Good Day, A Really Good Day
I went to church this morning for the first time in months and it felt really good.
I did my 12 laps around the high school track (5K) and took approx. 5 minutes off my time.
I arrived home, satisfyingly sore and sweaty, and got a call from a friend who wanted to meet for lunch at one of my favorite local joints. Cleaned up quickly and met her for one of my last outdoor meals at Poor Phil's, enjoying a crab cake, a frou-frou drink and mild temperature, blue skies and sunshine.
Caught the last half of the Cubs-Giants game, and while we did lose and Bonds did get yet another HR, it wasn't without its charming moments: (1) The completely adorable little boy in the bleachers who caught Bonds' HR did what any right-thinking Cub fan should do whenever an opposing hitter sends one into the seats -- he threw the ball back. Even though it was Bonds and it's possible that ball might have been worth something. Other right-thinking Northsiders got together and rewarded the kid a new Cub cap. (2) D Lee came off the bench to pinch hit with the bases loaded. A grand slam would have been nice, of course, but it was still a thrill to see him take a swing and drive in a run, even if it was just a sac fly. (3) Ron Santo, This Old Cub, led the crowd in "Take Me Out to the Ballgame." I love Ronnie so; he's the continuity that connects my adult summers with my little girl summers.
And now I'm curled up, ready to watch the Jerry Lewis MDA Telethon. This year it's out of Vegas, Baby! JER-RY! JER-RY! JER-RY! (Remember, if you're going to mock the man, you must support the cause. 888-HELP-MDA.)
All this, and heaven, too.
I did my 12 laps around the high school track (5K) and took approx. 5 minutes off my time.
I arrived home, satisfyingly sore and sweaty, and got a call from a friend who wanted to meet for lunch at one of my favorite local joints. Cleaned up quickly and met her for one of my last outdoor meals at Poor Phil's, enjoying a crab cake, a frou-frou drink and mild temperature, blue skies and sunshine.
Caught the last half of the Cubs-Giants game, and while we did lose and Bonds did get yet another HR, it wasn't without its charming moments: (1) The completely adorable little boy in the bleachers who caught Bonds' HR did what any right-thinking Cub fan should do whenever an opposing hitter sends one into the seats -- he threw the ball back. Even though it was Bonds and it's possible that ball might have been worth something. Other right-thinking Northsiders got together and rewarded the kid a new Cub cap. (2) D Lee came off the bench to pinch hit with the bases loaded. A grand slam would have been nice, of course, but it was still a thrill to see him take a swing and drive in a run, even if it was just a sac fly. (3) Ron Santo, This Old Cub, led the crowd in "Take Me Out to the Ballgame." I love Ronnie so; he's the continuity that connects my adult summers with my little girl summers.
And now I'm curled up, ready to watch the Jerry Lewis MDA Telethon. This year it's out of Vegas, Baby! JER-RY! JER-RY! JER-RY! (Remember, if you're going to mock the man, you must support the cause. 888-HELP-MDA.)
All this, and heaven, too.
At least now he's easier to spot
Oh, I simply must develop a spine! My very nice, very old but very loquacious and very, very annoying neighbor, Mr. B., was seated out in front of the building for 20 minutes yesterday. Because of construction on the building next door, we can't use our back door. So Mr. B. was obstructing my only exit, and so I was trapped inside my building for 20 sunny, mild, blue-skyed minutes.
I know this is silly. But last time I was cornered by Mr. B. (the end of July), he completely bullied me into ordering Avon from him. So I chose some items I really don't need or want, and guess what -- he screwed up the order. Again. I simply cannot bear yet another conversation that goes on for pointless minutes and ends with him saying, "But I'll take care of you. Don't I always take care of you?"
No. No you don't, Mr. B. You screw up every order. You scare the crap out of me by ringing my bell at all hours, so I'll know you left yet another Avon catalog outside my door. If I keep the catalog, you come by and ask for it back. If I return the catalog with my order, you come by and tell me I'm supposed to keep it. I cannot take this anymore, Mr. B! I am being terrorized and tyranized by the oldest, sweetest and most male Avon Lady ever!
There is good news, though. He's taken to wearing a bright yellow baseball cap. I like to think of it as a bright yellow lighthouse beacon, warning me to stay away.
I know this is silly. But last time I was cornered by Mr. B. (the end of July), he completely bullied me into ordering Avon from him. So I chose some items I really don't need or want, and guess what -- he screwed up the order. Again. I simply cannot bear yet another conversation that goes on for pointless minutes and ends with him saying, "But I'll take care of you. Don't I always take care of you?"
No. No you don't, Mr. B. You screw up every order. You scare the crap out of me by ringing my bell at all hours, so I'll know you left yet another Avon catalog outside my door. If I keep the catalog, you come by and ask for it back. If I return the catalog with my order, you come by and tell me I'm supposed to keep it. I cannot take this anymore, Mr. B! I am being terrorized and tyranized by the oldest, sweetest and most male Avon Lady ever!
There is good news, though. He's taken to wearing a bright yellow baseball cap. I like to think of it as a bright yellow lighthouse beacon, warning me to stay away.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Labor I Won't Be Doing on Labor Day
I won't be scrubbing the underside of my bathmat. It grows black mildewy gook faster than … hell, I can't think of an example to illustrate the speed with which black mildewy gook grows. Can't we just say it gets icky dirty really often?
And so I spent an inordinate amount of time trying to keep it clean. And losing.
I bought a new one. It cost $8. Clearly it's a better use of my time to simply say "out with the old, in the with the new."
Geez! I can be so cheap at times. $8 for a new one. Why have I waited so long?
I'm the same way with my shower curtain. A new liner is less than $5, yet every time I dye my hair I struggle to make sure that all bits of splashed dye are rinsed away. What an incredible waste of my time.
Of course, I'm not always cheap. I'm travelling 2000 miles and staying in a nice hotel, all to see a ballgame.
And so I spent an inordinate amount of time trying to keep it clean. And losing.
I bought a new one. It cost $8. Clearly it's a better use of my time to simply say "out with the old, in the with the new."
Geez! I can be so cheap at times. $8 for a new one. Why have I waited so long?
I'm the same way with my shower curtain. A new liner is less than $5, yet every time I dye my hair I struggle to make sure that all bits of splashed dye are rinsed away. What an incredible waste of my time.
Of course, I'm not always cheap. I'm travelling 2000 miles and staying in a nice hotel, all to see a ballgame.
Friday, September 01, 2006
It's happening! It's really happening!
I saw two rather attractive firefighters today, moving among the motorists at the intersection of Harlem and North, collecting donations for MDA in their big rubber boots.
I love firefighters. I love MDA. I love big rubber boots. And you know why, don't you?
JER-RY! JER-RY! JER-RY!
The Telethon is nearly upon us.
Keep Your Labor Day Karma in Balance. Remember, if you're going to make fun of Jerry (as in laughing at him, not with him), you must also make a contribution to MDA. (888) HELP-MDA or (888) 435-7632
I love firefighters. I love MDA. I love big rubber boots. And you know why, don't you?
JER-RY! JER-RY! JER-RY!
The Telethon is nearly upon us.
Keep Your Labor Day Karma in Balance. Remember, if you're going to make fun of Jerry (as in laughing at him, not with him), you must also make a contribution to MDA. (888) HELP-MDA or (888) 435-7632
Go West, Pudgy Middle-Aged Woman!
It's all coming together. My favorite baseball player is in Los Angeles, pitching for the Dodgers at least through October 1 (longer with the play-offs). My best friend is in Los Angeles four days a week, working on a special client project at least through October 1.
Clearly this is a sign that I should get myself to Los Angeles.
And so later this month I am going to Los Angeles for two nights. Hopefully one of those nights will coincide with Greg Maddux' place in the Dodger pitching rotation so I can gaze upon him one more time this year. When I'm not gazing upon my best friend, who will be seated beside me, having a beer and a Dodger dog.
So now all I have to do is clear up my skin and lose 20 lbs in the next two weeks. How hard can it be? Just because I've been trying unsuccessfully to do both for the last several years shouldn't deter me.
Clearly this is a sign that I should get myself to Los Angeles.
And so later this month I am going to Los Angeles for two nights. Hopefully one of those nights will coincide with Greg Maddux' place in the Dodger pitching rotation so I can gaze upon him one more time this year. When I'm not gazing upon my best friend, who will be seated beside me, having a beer and a Dodger dog.
So now all I have to do is clear up my skin and lose 20 lbs in the next two weeks. How hard can it be? Just because I've been trying unsuccessfully to do both for the last several years shouldn't deter me.
And I sank into nothingness
So I'm watching a Gidget rerun. She's writing in her diary, making a fake entry to pass the time, and she pens, "Jeff kissed me as I have never been kissed before, and I got goose-pimply all over." Then goes "EWWW! ICK!" and changes it to "Jeff kissed me as I have never been kissed before, and I sank into nothingness."
The thing that bothers me about this is that I remembered the line. This afternoon, Sally Field and I said, "and I sank into nothingness" together.
Considering that I am battling hormonal acne and that Gidget herself is now the poster girl for an osteoporosis drug, I think we can all agree that this show is very, very old. 40 years, maybe? And still I could remember, "And then I sank into nothingness." Do you suppose that when I was younger I had any idea what Gidget meant?
The thing that bothers me about this is that I remembered the line. This afternoon, Sally Field and I said, "and I sank into nothingness" together.
Considering that I am battling hormonal acne and that Gidget herself is now the poster girl for an osteoporosis drug, I think we can all agree that this show is very, very old. 40 years, maybe? And still I could remember, "And then I sank into nothingness." Do you suppose that when I was younger I had any idea what Gidget meant?
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Why I Love Greg Maddux
He's the tenth winningest pitcher of all time. As of last night, Steve Carlton takes a back seat and the Professor takes sole possession of 10th place with his 330th win. Good is sexy, great is hot.
He's modest. In last night's postgame press conference, he spoke respectfully of passing Carlton. "It's kind of cool. I got to watch him in a few games when I first came up and I always admired and respected what he did on the mound."
He's an all-around baseball player. He hits -- he got his 80th RBI last night. He fields -- 15 Golden Gloves. With Greg Maddux in the world, there's no reason for Roger Clemens to exist.
He has the sweetest smile. He looks like a Precious Moments doll in a Dodger uniform. Which comes in handy, since I've read that in person he's as slick and insincere as Tim Matheson's Otter. Reporters make it sound like he's likely to grab a stranger's hand and pump it, "Eric Stratton, damn glad to meet you."
His looks are deceptive. Friends who do not understand why he inspires my lust as well as admiration have dismissed Greg Maddux as looking like "a suburban dad" or "a computer geek." That is precisely the point. When you see Michael Jordan, you know instantly he's the best there ever was, the best there ever will be. MJ looks like he was kissed by the angels before he was born. Greg Maddux is an example of the power of concentration, will, and intellect. And I think that is sooooo hot.
His wife is his high school sweetheart. The first time I saw her, I thought, "Of course, a blonde." I mean, he's a ball player, and aren't blonde wives one of the reasons boys want to become ball players? And Greg Maddux is more than a ball player, he's a ball player who grew up in Las Vegas. I just assumed that meant he had the desire for peroxide in his blood. Amazingly, all my assumptions are wrong. Greg and Kathy met in high school! And here they are, quarter of a century later.
He gives back. The Maddux Foundation supports youth programs and shelters for abused women and children.
Yes, I've seen the old Nike commercial where he said rather memorably, "Chicks love the long ball." But rest assured, Greg Maddux, this chick will love you till I die.
He's modest. In last night's postgame press conference, he spoke respectfully of passing Carlton. "It's kind of cool. I got to watch him in a few games when I first came up and I always admired and respected what he did on the mound."
He's an all-around baseball player. He hits -- he got his 80th RBI last night. He fields -- 15 Golden Gloves. With Greg Maddux in the world, there's no reason for Roger Clemens to exist.
He has the sweetest smile. He looks like a Precious Moments doll in a Dodger uniform. Which comes in handy, since I've read that in person he's as slick and insincere as Tim Matheson's Otter. Reporters make it sound like he's likely to grab a stranger's hand and pump it, "Eric Stratton, damn glad to meet you."
His looks are deceptive. Friends who do not understand why he inspires my lust as well as admiration have dismissed Greg Maddux as looking like "a suburban dad" or "a computer geek." That is precisely the point. When you see Michael Jordan, you know instantly he's the best there ever was, the best there ever will be. MJ looks like he was kissed by the angels before he was born. Greg Maddux is an example of the power of concentration, will, and intellect. And I think that is sooooo hot.
His wife is his high school sweetheart. The first time I saw her, I thought, "Of course, a blonde." I mean, he's a ball player, and aren't blonde wives one of the reasons boys want to become ball players? And Greg Maddux is more than a ball player, he's a ball player who grew up in Las Vegas. I just assumed that meant he had the desire for peroxide in his blood. Amazingly, all my assumptions are wrong. Greg and Kathy met in high school! And here they are, quarter of a century later.
He gives back. The Maddux Foundation supports youth programs and shelters for abused women and children.
Yes, I've seen the old Nike commercial where he said rather memorably, "Chicks love the long ball." But rest assured, Greg Maddux, this chick will love you till I die.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Melanie Griffith = Mother of the Year
Love that photo of Melanie Griffith lighting her teenage daughter's cigarette for her. Clearly in the Griffith/Banderas household, the health and fitness regimen is built around Pilates and nicotine.
I've been seeing the photo bounce from website to website for a couple weeks now, but have yet to read any comment on the subject from Ms. G. herself. I wonder what she has to say …
I know that Melanie Griffith has battled addiction since her teen years. And I am very sincere when I say that I appreciate her struggle and applaud her for staying on the straight and narrow.
But this means that she has an addictive personality, a trait she could very well pass on to her kids. To borrow a phrase that has become very popular here in Illinois (thanks to our gubernatorial race): what's she thinking?
I've been seeing the photo bounce from website to website for a couple weeks now, but have yet to read any comment on the subject from Ms. G. herself. I wonder what she has to say …
I know that Melanie Griffith has battled addiction since her teen years. And I am very sincere when I say that I appreciate her struggle and applaud her for staying on the straight and narrow.
But this means that she has an addictive personality, a trait she could very well pass on to her kids. To borrow a phrase that has become very popular here in Illinois (thanks to our gubernatorial race): what's she thinking?
Labor Day Dilemma
I love, love, LOVE the MDA Jerry Lewis telethon. Jerry is the King of Show Biz Schmaltz. I adore it when he calls Ed McMahon "Pussycat." I quiver when he goes to the big tote board. I thrill when he insults the people (everyone from firefighters to convenience store managers) who bring him those oversized checks. And where else can you see ventriloquists, impressionists and plate spinners? (Yes, I appreciate all the good works MDA does all year around; that's why I make monthly contributions. My joy and delight in Jerry's antics have nothing to do with how valid and useful MDA is.)
But, in a masterstroke of counter programming, the USA Network is running a Law & Order: SVU Labor Day Marathon! I am comparatively new to Elliott and Olivia and am completely hooked! There are so many episodes I haven't seen.
So what's a girl to do? Which will I choose to accompany me as I go through my annual Labor Day ritual of cleaning my closets, putting away my summer things and going through my fall clothes?
But, in a masterstroke of counter programming, the USA Network is running a Law & Order: SVU Labor Day Marathon! I am comparatively new to Elliott and Olivia and am completely hooked! There are so many episodes I haven't seen.
So what's a girl to do? Which will I choose to accompany me as I go through my annual Labor Day ritual of cleaning my closets, putting away my summer things and going through my fall clothes?
Sunday, August 27, 2006
The Important Stuff of Life
Watching the Emmies instead of changing my shower curtain liner, these terribly important observations have occured to me …
It's not like Tom Cruise is an anti-Semitic, misogynistic, homophobic drunk driver or anything. OK, I happened to be home last year when Tom jumped on Oprah's sofa proclaiming his love for poor Katie Holmes. Seeing it live and unhyped, it completely creeped me out. (Though I thought Oprah was just as weird that morning, murmering, "The boy is gone!" over and over.) And the Brooke Shield thing was awful. And where is Baby Suri? All that said, this piling on really bothers me. It's my way. Once a cause is completely lost, I must support it. First Tom gets fired by Paramount because he's only made them one gazillion dollars when they hoped for three gazillion. Now tonight on the Emmies, the South Park boys show him coming out of the closet. Enough. Let's leave poor Maverick alone. And start aiming our bile at Mel Gibson, where it belongs.
Stephen Colbert and Jon Stewart are perfect. No, really. They are.
Mariska Hargitay has outstanding shoulders. I wish I had her body, Debra Messing's face and Lindsay Wagner's voice. There. I believe I have constructed my perfect alternate self completely out of Emmy winners.
Steve Carell deserves all the praise he's finally getting. I just saw Little Miss Sunshine and he's poignant. Who knew?
Of all the Sheen men, Martin is still the only one I'd do. And I wish Jed Bartlett had been our president these past 6 years.
I never thought Seinfeld was funny. Nor anyone who ever appeared on it. So I really don't care that Julia Louis Dreyfuss' win tonight heralds the end of the Seinfeld Curse. I'm far more interested in "The Kotter Curse." The actor who played Horshak mentioned that on the THS or something. Except for Travolta, none of the Sweathogs are working. And yet somehow the academy still found people to award Emmies to!
Patrick Dempsey is the most gorgeous thing on the show. Of course, that's only because Hugh Jackman lost to Barry Manilow. (Wonder how well Barry would have done if there had been a swimsuit competition.)
I wonder if Mrs. Greg Maddux is happy. This has nothing to do with the Emmies, but it's on my mind anyway. Rumor has it Bruce Springsteen and his "Red Headed Woman," Patti Scialfa, have hit the skids. We already know that Heather Mills is about lose her title. I have long lusted after The Boss and have loved Sir Paul since I was 6 years old. My admiration/obsession/adoration of The Professor has increased with time, and if he was to become suddenly single right now, what a fantasy trifecta that would be!
It's not like Tom Cruise is an anti-Semitic, misogynistic, homophobic drunk driver or anything. OK, I happened to be home last year when Tom jumped on Oprah's sofa proclaiming his love for poor Katie Holmes. Seeing it live and unhyped, it completely creeped me out. (Though I thought Oprah was just as weird that morning, murmering, "The boy is gone!" over and over.) And the Brooke Shield thing was awful. And where is Baby Suri? All that said, this piling on really bothers me. It's my way. Once a cause is completely lost, I must support it. First Tom gets fired by Paramount because he's only made them one gazillion dollars when they hoped for three gazillion. Now tonight on the Emmies, the South Park boys show him coming out of the closet. Enough. Let's leave poor Maverick alone. And start aiming our bile at Mel Gibson, where it belongs.
Stephen Colbert and Jon Stewart are perfect. No, really. They are.
Mariska Hargitay has outstanding shoulders. I wish I had her body, Debra Messing's face and Lindsay Wagner's voice. There. I believe I have constructed my perfect alternate self completely out of Emmy winners.
Steve Carell deserves all the praise he's finally getting. I just saw Little Miss Sunshine and he's poignant. Who knew?
Of all the Sheen men, Martin is still the only one I'd do. And I wish Jed Bartlett had been our president these past 6 years.
I never thought Seinfeld was funny. Nor anyone who ever appeared on it. So I really don't care that Julia Louis Dreyfuss' win tonight heralds the end of the Seinfeld Curse. I'm far more interested in "The Kotter Curse." The actor who played Horshak mentioned that on the THS or something. Except for Travolta, none of the Sweathogs are working. And yet somehow the academy still found people to award Emmies to!
Patrick Dempsey is the most gorgeous thing on the show. Of course, that's only because Hugh Jackman lost to Barry Manilow. (Wonder how well Barry would have done if there had been a swimsuit competition.)
I wonder if Mrs. Greg Maddux is happy. This has nothing to do with the Emmies, but it's on my mind anyway. Rumor has it Bruce Springsteen and his "Red Headed Woman," Patti Scialfa, have hit the skids. We already know that Heather Mills is about lose her title. I have long lusted after The Boss and have loved Sir Paul since I was 6 years old. My admiration/obsession/adoration of The Professor has increased with time, and if he was to become suddenly single right now, what a fantasy trifecta that would be!
I really do appreciate the sentiments, BUT …
Last Saturday I received a surprise phone call from a good friend of mine. She's not a "phone person." Generally she only calls to confirm a meeting date, time or location. On this day, she had an important message to convey. She was at a weekend-long seminar called The Landmark Forum and it was having a huge impact on her. She wanted to tell me that she had a breakthrough about her marriage; she was concerned that I disliked her husband because of things she'd said to me about her their relationship. I told her not to worry -- that I just thought of her comments as "venting" and I never doubted the strength of her marriage to a good man. She then told me she wanted to share The Landmark Forum experience with me, that she knew I had issues I was wrestling with and she hoped I could get as much out of the Forum as she did. So I told her that yes, I'd go with her the following Tuesday night. She was very sincere in wanting the best for me, and I appreciate that. Also I was honored that she wanted to share this with me. So I went with an open mind.
The Forum ran from 7:15 to 10:00. I listened to everything. I participated in the exercises. I shared with the rest of the class. I admit that I got something out of it. I felt energized about my power to shape my own short-term future. I had gotten my Day Planner out (I'm not a Blackberry girl yet) and was trying to juggle dates and finances so that I could take the full Forum myself this autumn. Then my session leader -- an unpaid volunteer named Dan -- started on me.
He moved his chair too close to mine and wanted to know which Forum I was signing up for. I said I was thinking about it but simply couldn't commit just then. Needed to check on when/if my windows are being replaced, which weekend I'm going to Vegas, my nephew's birthday … He told me that was a cop-out, that with this attitude I was never going to reach my goals. Huh? What? I told him I didn't see how being responsible to loved ones and commitments would doom me to failure. He wanted to know details ("Why?" "Why not?") and I told him I resented having to share my finances with him. "I don't care about your money," he said. "I don't get airline miles or a new toaster if you sign up." But then he took the brochure out of my lap and wrote on it, showing me different areas of the fine print regarding refunds. Honey Bunny, I'm a financial writer. I COMPOSE fine print. Nobody's got to show me what to read before I sign something. I know that he was trying to convey to me that if I signed up then and there, I wouldn't necessarily be out anything if I had to reschedule. But he was invading my personal space and intimidating me. (Remember Hillary Clinton's debate with Rick Laszio?) I told him I felt bullied and he apologized. I also told him he had strengthened my resolve not to sign up. He apologized for that, too.
Not good enough.
My friend told me that his goal was strictly to help me reach my goals. Since he was an unpaid volunteer, what other motive could he have? How about being the center of attention? And the opportunity to force his will on a new woman?
I can't emphasize enough how uncomfortable his behavior made me. So I googled The Landmark Forum and was surprised to see quite a bit of negative input. And that it's just EST renamed. There doesn't seem to be a terrific premium on independent thought at the Landmark Forum. And it seems you're never "done" with the program. There's always another continuing course to take. The word "cult" was used more than once.
So I won't be going back. We're all different, like snowflakes. If my friend got something of value out of this, I'm genuinely happy for her. I'm glad I went that evening because now I will better understand what's going on with her. Most of all, I'm touched that she cares enough about me to try to help me out of my current funk.
But I won't be going back.
The Forum ran from 7:15 to 10:00. I listened to everything. I participated in the exercises. I shared with the rest of the class. I admit that I got something out of it. I felt energized about my power to shape my own short-term future. I had gotten my Day Planner out (I'm not a Blackberry girl yet) and was trying to juggle dates and finances so that I could take the full Forum myself this autumn. Then my session leader -- an unpaid volunteer named Dan -- started on me.
He moved his chair too close to mine and wanted to know which Forum I was signing up for. I said I was thinking about it but simply couldn't commit just then. Needed to check on when/if my windows are being replaced, which weekend I'm going to Vegas, my nephew's birthday … He told me that was a cop-out, that with this attitude I was never going to reach my goals. Huh? What? I told him I didn't see how being responsible to loved ones and commitments would doom me to failure. He wanted to know details ("Why?" "Why not?") and I told him I resented having to share my finances with him. "I don't care about your money," he said. "I don't get airline miles or a new toaster if you sign up." But then he took the brochure out of my lap and wrote on it, showing me different areas of the fine print regarding refunds. Honey Bunny, I'm a financial writer. I COMPOSE fine print. Nobody's got to show me what to read before I sign something. I know that he was trying to convey to me that if I signed up then and there, I wouldn't necessarily be out anything if I had to reschedule. But he was invading my personal space and intimidating me. (Remember Hillary Clinton's debate with Rick Laszio?) I told him I felt bullied and he apologized. I also told him he had strengthened my resolve not to sign up. He apologized for that, too.
Not good enough.
My friend told me that his goal was strictly to help me reach my goals. Since he was an unpaid volunteer, what other motive could he have? How about being the center of attention? And the opportunity to force his will on a new woman?
I can't emphasize enough how uncomfortable his behavior made me. So I googled The Landmark Forum and was surprised to see quite a bit of negative input. And that it's just EST renamed. There doesn't seem to be a terrific premium on independent thought at the Landmark Forum. And it seems you're never "done" with the program. There's always another continuing course to take. The word "cult" was used more than once.
So I won't be going back. We're all different, like snowflakes. If my friend got something of value out of this, I'm genuinely happy for her. I'm glad I went that evening because now I will better understand what's going on with her. Most of all, I'm touched that she cares enough about me to try to help me out of my current funk.
But I won't be going back.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Get well, President Ford
What do Linda McCartney and Gerald Ford have in common? I was unnecessarily harsh to them in the 1970s and I'm sorry about it now. Let's blame it on my youth.
When it was announced that Gerald Ford was Nixon's choice to succeed Spiro Agnew, I was in the backseat of a friend's family car, being ferried to some after-school activity. As I heard Nixon prattling off Ford's attributes through the car's AM radio speakers, I remember adding my own, "And he cheats really good, too." Cracked up my friends, but their dad behind the wheel was quiet. As a kid, I had no idea how serious this was for the country. All I knew was that Richard Nixon was a loser, a crook, a waste of space, a bad man. And anyone he selected as his second in command had to be a loser, crook, etc., as well.
When Ford became president himself and pardoned Nixon, I was appalled. Gypped out of an impeachment by his chickenshit resignation, I wanted to see Nixon go to trial. When the pardon came down, I was sure some kind of "fix" was in.
Decades later, during the Whitewater/Lewinsky affair which weakened our country and made us look more than a little ridiculous the world over, I appreciated what Gerald Ford did. That pardon was patriotic. That pardon saved this nation a messy and ultimately pointless debacle. Naturally Nixon deserved impeachment more than Bill Clinton did, but with the wisdom of age I understand better how much a Nixon trial would cost this country, and how tiny the benefit would be compared to the cost.
Gerald Ford is an old man now. He has health problems. I hope that he takes solace in the Profiles in Courage award he won a few years back, awarded by the Kennedy Library in honor of his courageous decision to pardon Richard Nixon. I hope he knows that people like me are sorry we were so hard on him back in those dark days.
Get well, and God bless you, sir.
When it was announced that Gerald Ford was Nixon's choice to succeed Spiro Agnew, I was in the backseat of a friend's family car, being ferried to some after-school activity. As I heard Nixon prattling off Ford's attributes through the car's AM radio speakers, I remember adding my own, "And he cheats really good, too." Cracked up my friends, but their dad behind the wheel was quiet. As a kid, I had no idea how serious this was for the country. All I knew was that Richard Nixon was a loser, a crook, a waste of space, a bad man. And anyone he selected as his second in command had to be a loser, crook, etc., as well.
When Ford became president himself and pardoned Nixon, I was appalled. Gypped out of an impeachment by his chickenshit resignation, I wanted to see Nixon go to trial. When the pardon came down, I was sure some kind of "fix" was in.
Decades later, during the Whitewater/Lewinsky affair which weakened our country and made us look more than a little ridiculous the world over, I appreciated what Gerald Ford did. That pardon was patriotic. That pardon saved this nation a messy and ultimately pointless debacle. Naturally Nixon deserved impeachment more than Bill Clinton did, but with the wisdom of age I understand better how much a Nixon trial would cost this country, and how tiny the benefit would be compared to the cost.
Gerald Ford is an old man now. He has health problems. I hope that he takes solace in the Profiles in Courage award he won a few years back, awarded by the Kennedy Library in honor of his courageous decision to pardon Richard Nixon. I hope he knows that people like me are sorry we were so hard on him back in those dark days.
Get well, and God bless you, sir.
OK, so I'm xenophobic
Here I am, trying to kill time while my new Wamsutta sheet set is in the dryer, taking a voyeuristic peak at other people's lives by hitting the "next blog" button over and over.
As I'm surfing from blog to blog, I don't want to be confronted with Asian symbols or exclusively Spanish entries. To be honest, I don't even want to read English entries by American expatriates living in New Zealand or wherever the hell they've gone. I don't want to expand my horizons by learning about other cultures and foreign lands.
I want to read about relationship troubles, money troubles, career troubles. You know, the juicy stuff of life. I enjoy reading about the triumphs, too. And looking at cute pictures of other people's dogs and cats. Peering into other people's blogs is as much fun as an old Judith Krantz novel. (Remember Scruples?) And I don't want it interrupted with foreigners and educational stuff, OK?
As I'm surfing from blog to blog, I don't want to be confronted with Asian symbols or exclusively Spanish entries. To be honest, I don't even want to read English entries by American expatriates living in New Zealand or wherever the hell they've gone. I don't want to expand my horizons by learning about other cultures and foreign lands.
I want to read about relationship troubles, money troubles, career troubles. You know, the juicy stuff of life. I enjoy reading about the triumphs, too. And looking at cute pictures of other people's dogs and cats. Peering into other people's blogs is as much fun as an old Judith Krantz novel. (Remember Scruples?) And I don't want it interrupted with foreigners and educational stuff, OK?
Confused
So let's just say for a moment that John Mark Karr is a pathetic nut with a fragile grasp of reality. If he didn't kill JonBenet Ramsey, does this mean her parents are suspects again? To borrow a phrase, "Where's Johnny?"* Is he still under an "umbrella of suspicion?"
*Heard someone on TV say that today's incoming college freshman have only known Jay Leno as the host of The Tonight Show. Does that make anyone but me feel really, really old?
*Heard someone on TV say that today's incoming college freshman have only known Jay Leno as the host of The Tonight Show. Does that make anyone but me feel really, really old?
Friday, August 25, 2006
The End of an Era (Hopefully)
I've had bad skin for about 30 years now. Not really bad skin. Not bad enough that if you sat next to me on the bus, you'd say, "Oh, that poor thing." If my skin was that bad I would have done something done about it long ago.
Instead my skin is just bad enough to sap a lot of my time, energy, money and self-esteem. I've got a little of it all: monthly hormonal break outs, a few acne scars, uneven color, stray facial hairs. Every morning I spend an enormous amount of time tending to it. Then I can go out without scaring children, or horrifying you if you so happen to sit beside me on the bus.
I went to a new dermatologist today. It was rough to go out of the house without foundation. But I did it. And since he's a dermatologist, he's seen worse and wasn't the least bit horrified. He pretty much contradicted everything my former doctor told me. Yes, I can use a topical cream on my monthly break-outs. Yes, I am a candidate for laser hair removal. Yes, he can help me even out my skin color/tone.
I wish I wasn't so shallow. I wish this didn't fill me with relief. I wish I didn't care so much.
But I do.
Instead my skin is just bad enough to sap a lot of my time, energy, money and self-esteem. I've got a little of it all: monthly hormonal break outs, a few acne scars, uneven color, stray facial hairs. Every morning I spend an enormous amount of time tending to it. Then I can go out without scaring children, or horrifying you if you so happen to sit beside me on the bus.
I went to a new dermatologist today. It was rough to go out of the house without foundation. But I did it. And since he's a dermatologist, he's seen worse and wasn't the least bit horrified. He pretty much contradicted everything my former doctor told me. Yes, I can use a topical cream on my monthly break-outs. Yes, I am a candidate for laser hair removal. Yes, he can help me even out my skin color/tone.
I wish I wasn't so shallow. I wish this didn't fill me with relief. I wish I didn't care so much.
But I do.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
… as big as my head!
There's a Lane Bryant Store opening soon on Wabash. I walk past the location every day, twice a day, on my way to and from the el. The in-store renovations are going along furiously, and to keep the public in suspense until the grand opening, Lane Bryant is doing what many stores do: covering the windows with big, full-color shots of models in their fall finest.
So far, so good.
Except one of the photos is of a model in a black strapless bra. It's a big photo and, since Lane Bryant caters to women size 14 and up, she's a big model. And I hate walking past it because, well, it kinda scares me. Just one of her cups is, quite literally, as big as my head!
I'm no longer a petite flower. I wear a size 10. But oh me, oh my! That photo is darn right intimidating. Forget Snakes on a Plane. The Lane Bryant window on Wabash -- now THAT'S scary!
So far, so good.
Except one of the photos is of a model in a black strapless bra. It's a big photo and, since Lane Bryant caters to women size 14 and up, she's a big model. And I hate walking past it because, well, it kinda scares me. Just one of her cups is, quite literally, as big as my head!
I'm no longer a petite flower. I wear a size 10. But oh me, oh my! That photo is darn right intimidating. Forget Snakes on a Plane. The Lane Bryant window on Wabash -- now THAT'S scary!
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
YUM!
Check this out.
No, really.
Ladies, I promise you will thank me.
http://www.tmz.com/2006/08/23/matt-lauers-pricey-pecs/
No, really.
Ladies, I promise you will thank me.
http://www.tmz.com/2006/08/23/matt-lauers-pricey-pecs/
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
The Laurie Guy
Now that my life is half over, I have belatedly come to the realization that I have "a type." Three of the men I have loved look very much alike. Short dark hair, lighter-than-you'd-expect eyes, good cheekbones, glasses. I'm pretty short (my driver's license says 5'3") so height isn't really relevant. Two of the three were very into martial arts; two were Catholic; two were (said affectionately) financial nerds.
How did I never notice these similarities before?
Is it that my affection for these men subconsciously began with attraction (OK, lust) but my conscious mind wanted to dress it up as something loftier?
Certainly my relationship with the 1980s model Laurie Guy was based on lust. He was savvy and boyishly charming, but certainly not smart. (The phrase "dumb as a box of rocks" has been used to describe him.) We had two speeds: fighting and f***ing. I cannot remember anything we had in common, other than our mutual willingness to blame me for all his problems. Whence last I heard, he was working at a Domino's Pizza. He would easily be 50 now. (I could look it up; he was very proud of the fact he and DisneyWorld had the same birthday.) To borrow from Babs, "It's the laughter we will remember ..." so I will try to remember something positive or sweet about that relationship. Ummmm ... In addition to martial arts (carefully pronounced "kuh-rah-TAY"), which he did obsessively but not well, he loved The Three Stooges. Considering how depraved many areas of his life were, his love of The Stooges was pure and kinda touching. His favorites were (in order) Curley, Moe, Larry, Shemp and Curley Joe.
The 1990s model Laurie Guy and I had a more genuine connection. He actually thought about stuff that we could talk about. Things neither of us could necessarily discuss with other people, because not everyone was as geeky as we were. Like the relevance of the Electoral College. (Yes, I sure know how to seduce a man, don't I?) I loved how his mind worked. The two people he admired most were Dr. King and economist Adam Smith. Now come on! How can you not be intrigued by that? He also had a terrific body and terrific control of it. He was a black belt in kuh-rah-TAY. He was modest and very, very remote. No matter how often he said it, I never really believed he loved me because there was so much he kept tucked away. He was smart, never boring, and could be very tender. My happiest moment with him: being awoken by how tightly he was holding me as he slept. He's married now, and I hope he's happy because he really was a very nice man.
The New Millenium Laurie Guy is my best friend. Since we've never slept together, and aren't likely to, I don't know if we'd be compatible. I do know that there is a certain level of tension between us that we diffuse most clumsily. (Bickering, teasing, kicking one another under the table ... come on, you remember 7th grade!) I love how open he is with his emotions, how hard he works at being a good dad, how accepting he is of the things about me other people find grating. In fact, I don't think I've ever felt as accepted by anyone in my life as I have been by him. While he's more serious than people realize, my favorite thing about him is how when we're together we play and act silly. My favorite moment with him would be (this is very non-PC) the night we watched Brokeback Mountain on pay-per-view and laughed till the pizza and beer were practically coming out of our noses. "Stem the rose" is a phrase that can still crack us up.*
Let's see now ... what have I learned on this jaunt down Memory Lane. That I have "a type." And that (saints be praised!) I never make the same mistake twice. The 1980s Laurie Guy was an abusive drunk with questionably calibrated moral compass. 1990s Laurie Guy and New Millenium Laurie Guy are better men, better to me and for me.
*I know, I know ... Brokeback is one of the great movie love stories of all time. Yeah, yeah, whatever. Gay cowboys lassoing one another out on the range is funny. It just is. Not our fault.
How did I never notice these similarities before?
Is it that my affection for these men subconsciously began with attraction (OK, lust) but my conscious mind wanted to dress it up as something loftier?
Certainly my relationship with the 1980s model Laurie Guy was based on lust. He was savvy and boyishly charming, but certainly not smart. (The phrase "dumb as a box of rocks" has been used to describe him.) We had two speeds: fighting and f***ing. I cannot remember anything we had in common, other than our mutual willingness to blame me for all his problems. Whence last I heard, he was working at a Domino's Pizza. He would easily be 50 now. (I could look it up; he was very proud of the fact he and DisneyWorld had the same birthday.) To borrow from Babs, "It's the laughter we will remember ..." so I will try to remember something positive or sweet about that relationship. Ummmm ... In addition to martial arts (carefully pronounced "kuh-rah-TAY"), which he did obsessively but not well, he loved The Three Stooges. Considering how depraved many areas of his life were, his love of The Stooges was pure and kinda touching. His favorites were (in order) Curley, Moe, Larry, Shemp and Curley Joe.
The 1990s model Laurie Guy and I had a more genuine connection. He actually thought about stuff that we could talk about. Things neither of us could necessarily discuss with other people, because not everyone was as geeky as we were. Like the relevance of the Electoral College. (Yes, I sure know how to seduce a man, don't I?) I loved how his mind worked. The two people he admired most were Dr. King and economist Adam Smith. Now come on! How can you not be intrigued by that? He also had a terrific body and terrific control of it. He was a black belt in kuh-rah-TAY. He was modest and very, very remote. No matter how often he said it, I never really believed he loved me because there was so much he kept tucked away. He was smart, never boring, and could be very tender. My happiest moment with him: being awoken by how tightly he was holding me as he slept. He's married now, and I hope he's happy because he really was a very nice man.
The New Millenium Laurie Guy is my best friend. Since we've never slept together, and aren't likely to, I don't know if we'd be compatible. I do know that there is a certain level of tension between us that we diffuse most clumsily. (Bickering, teasing, kicking one another under the table ... come on, you remember 7th grade!) I love how open he is with his emotions, how hard he works at being a good dad, how accepting he is of the things about me other people find grating. In fact, I don't think I've ever felt as accepted by anyone in my life as I have been by him. While he's more serious than people realize, my favorite thing about him is how when we're together we play and act silly. My favorite moment with him would be (this is very non-PC) the night we watched Brokeback Mountain on pay-per-view and laughed till the pizza and beer were practically coming out of our noses. "Stem the rose" is a phrase that can still crack us up.*
Let's see now ... what have I learned on this jaunt down Memory Lane. That I have "a type." And that (saints be praised!) I never make the same mistake twice. The 1980s Laurie Guy was an abusive drunk with questionably calibrated moral compass. 1990s Laurie Guy and New Millenium Laurie Guy are better men, better to me and for me.
*I know, I know ... Brokeback is one of the great movie love stories of all time. Yeah, yeah, whatever. Gay cowboys lassoing one another out on the range is funny. It just is. Not our fault.
Monday, August 21, 2006
This is so sweet, so heartening
The other night my nephew Brent, the one I barely know, the one I just met, called to ask me to attend my neice Becky's baptism. Of course I couldn't. For reasons all her own, my kid sister chose to invite the relative who molested me, and who still harrasses me when given the opportunity. I couldn't tell Brent that -- he's 19 and has quite a bit on his own plate -- so I made up an excuse about having to work.
After I hung up I was so angry. Once again I'd been put in a position to protect the skinny mean old ass of the man who fondled me.
I didn't have to. When Brent asked my mother and his mother why I wouldn't be there, they told him. Not the whole truth, but a reasonable facsimilie thereof. They told him that old Jim made me uncomfortable and unhappy and I couldn't bear to be around him. Brent said he'd "protect" me, not leave my side, not let Jim be alone with me. I answered so quickly and so definitively and so convincingly that he didn't bother to offer.
This is big. This is important. This is the first time I can recall that anyone ever offered to protect me. Brent, my young nephew.
Also, my mother seems to get it now. She seems to believe that my pain is real and substantial and lasting -- and not my fault. This is big and important, too.
I want to cry. And it's because it's so good.
After I hung up I was so angry. Once again I'd been put in a position to protect the skinny mean old ass of the man who fondled me.
I didn't have to. When Brent asked my mother and his mother why I wouldn't be there, they told him. Not the whole truth, but a reasonable facsimilie thereof. They told him that old Jim made me uncomfortable and unhappy and I couldn't bear to be around him. Brent said he'd "protect" me, not leave my side, not let Jim be alone with me. I answered so quickly and so definitively and so convincingly that he didn't bother to offer.
This is big. This is important. This is the first time I can recall that anyone ever offered to protect me. Brent, my young nephew.
Also, my mother seems to get it now. She seems to believe that my pain is real and substantial and lasting -- and not my fault. This is big and important, too.
I want to cry. And it's because it's so good.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Forever my guy
Former President Clinton turns 60. Happy Birthday, Bill. Stay healthy and active. Love 'ya.
Oh, Bill and I have had our moments. I believe that he was so concerned with saving his political hide during the Lewinsky Affair (all puns intended) that he wasn't able to pay enough attention to business, so he bears some responsibility for 9/11. I've never been able to understand how he could square the circle and get behind that welfare reform bill. And yes, I've heard the rumors about Belinda Stronach. And yes, everything I've just written leaves me feeling either a little heartbroken or a little skin crawly.
But then I think of my America BC (before Clinton), and I forgive him.
Remember that song, "The End of the Innocence?" We had twelve years of "the tired old man that we elected King" and Bush 41. In those days, my leaders had no connection to my life, nor to the lives of my friends. The chasm was so great that any interest in politics or goverment felt irrelevant … or worse, hopeless.
Then Bill arrived and it was like one of those Warner Bros. cartoons. The clouds broke, the sun came out, all the little woodland creatures came out of their holes and down from the trees and the birds began to sing again. With Bill at the helm, I had a leader I recognized. I felt like I knew this guy. And that even if I didn't agree with all he did, I believed my interests were heard, understood, appreciated.
Bill managed to convey that he was a man of faith, yet he understood the vital importance of the separation of Church and State. He cared about individuals rather than corporations. He spoke in a way we could all understand about issues we (my friends and I) cared about.
Best of all, he made everyone feel he was their President. And he still does. This past spring I visited the Clinton Presidential Library in Little Rock. I was there alongside a busload of middleschool students from Dallas. I watched them watch the little film Bill made as an introduction to the library exhibits. He had them. These are kids at an age when it's fashionable to make fun of everything. These are kids who are really too young to remember much about his presidency. And yet he connected with them.
I used to compare and contrast Bill with Senator Kerry and it seemed very unfair. I believe that Senator Kerry is as smart as Bill, has exhibited better judgement than Bill, and is the right man for this country at this time. Yet Senator Kerry would not have been able to grab and hold those kids' attention -- by video, no less -- the way Bill did.
George W. Bush is just as casual in speech as Bill. Just as loose in body language. Yet his message would not have resonated with those kids. So it's not just about charism or packaging. Content plays a role, too.
Bill came from nothing. His gifts and determination carried him from Hope, AR to the highest office in the land. He never forgot where he came from, and how to reach out, communicate with, and include everyone. And from that inclusion comes faith in goverment and hope for the future.
That's intangible, I know. But it's important. So thanks, Bill. Enjoy your birthday and take care.
Oh, Bill and I have had our moments. I believe that he was so concerned with saving his political hide during the Lewinsky Affair (all puns intended) that he wasn't able to pay enough attention to business, so he bears some responsibility for 9/11. I've never been able to understand how he could square the circle and get behind that welfare reform bill. And yes, I've heard the rumors about Belinda Stronach. And yes, everything I've just written leaves me feeling either a little heartbroken or a little skin crawly.
But then I think of my America BC (before Clinton), and I forgive him.
Remember that song, "The End of the Innocence?" We had twelve years of "the tired old man that we elected King" and Bush 41. In those days, my leaders had no connection to my life, nor to the lives of my friends. The chasm was so great that any interest in politics or goverment felt irrelevant … or worse, hopeless.
Then Bill arrived and it was like one of those Warner Bros. cartoons. The clouds broke, the sun came out, all the little woodland creatures came out of their holes and down from the trees and the birds began to sing again. With Bill at the helm, I had a leader I recognized. I felt like I knew this guy. And that even if I didn't agree with all he did, I believed my interests were heard, understood, appreciated.
Bill managed to convey that he was a man of faith, yet he understood the vital importance of the separation of Church and State. He cared about individuals rather than corporations. He spoke in a way we could all understand about issues we (my friends and I) cared about.
Best of all, he made everyone feel he was their President. And he still does. This past spring I visited the Clinton Presidential Library in Little Rock. I was there alongside a busload of middleschool students from Dallas. I watched them watch the little film Bill made as an introduction to the library exhibits. He had them. These are kids at an age when it's fashionable to make fun of everything. These are kids who are really too young to remember much about his presidency. And yet he connected with them.
I used to compare and contrast Bill with Senator Kerry and it seemed very unfair. I believe that Senator Kerry is as smart as Bill, has exhibited better judgement than Bill, and is the right man for this country at this time. Yet Senator Kerry would not have been able to grab and hold those kids' attention -- by video, no less -- the way Bill did.
George W. Bush is just as casual in speech as Bill. Just as loose in body language. Yet his message would not have resonated with those kids. So it's not just about charism or packaging. Content plays a role, too.
Bill came from nothing. His gifts and determination carried him from Hope, AR to the highest office in the land. He never forgot where he came from, and how to reach out, communicate with, and include everyone. And from that inclusion comes faith in goverment and hope for the future.
That's intangible, I know. But it's important. So thanks, Bill. Enjoy your birthday and take care.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Happy Birthday, Hubbell
The Sundance Kid. Johnny Hooker. Jay Gatsby. Paul Bratter. Bob Woodward. Roy Hobbs. They're all Robert Redford, and they all turned 70 this week.
70. Gulp.
I had a LIFE magazine cover with his beautiful photo on it in my high school locker. I had a big black and white poster of him in his STING pinstripes next to my bed. And he turned 70 this week.
70. I feel so old.
Well, happy birthday. Thanks for all the great work that entertained and influenced me. Thanks for launching a million square-jawed, blue-eyed fantasies. And thanks for the Sundance catalog, which sells really great jewelry.
70. Gulp.
I had a LIFE magazine cover with his beautiful photo on it in my high school locker. I had a big black and white poster of him in his STING pinstripes next to my bed. And he turned 70 this week.
70. I feel so old.
Well, happy birthday. Thanks for all the great work that entertained and influenced me. Thanks for launching a million square-jawed, blue-eyed fantasies. And thanks for the Sundance catalog, which sells really great jewelry.
Friday, August 18, 2006
About a boy … or two … or three … or four
I have a weakness: I really like men. I think most of them are fascinating, even when I find them frustrating. These days, these specimens have been on my mind.
Brent. He's 19, the oldest child of my lunatic older sister. Because he lives 2000 miles away and because he is the son of my lunatic older sister, I really have not had much, if anything, to do with him. Last time I saw him was (I think) in the summer of 2001. As I recall, he had no real interest in me then at all. So imagine my surprise when on Tuesday he called me as soon as he arrived for the Big Baptism. "Hi, Laurie. This is Brent. I want to have lunch with you tomorrow. What train and bus do I take?" Seems that now that he's almost an adult, beginning a new phase in his life (starting classes at the community college), he has decided to reach out to his rogue Aunt Laurie. Part of it was curiosity, part of it was to annoy his lunatic mother. Still, I was surprised that he did it and have to acknowledge that it was courageous of him. Both he and his younger sister, who came along for the ride, are attractive and literate. I was impressed. And sad, too. They really do hate their mother. I certainly understand it; all the best people hate their mother. But still, to think of those three unhappy people rattling around in that house together … it's sad. I gave both kids my email address, just in case they ever want to contact me again.
Ed. My former boss. We got together for dinner this week. He brought his daughter's college graduation photos, gave me an update on his health maladies, bragged about his wife's new-found professional success. He even had a little present for me -- a DVD similar to VH1's I Love the 70s. I left with a really good feeling. Ed's a good friend. When I was unemployed a few years ago, Ed made sure I had freelance work. He's one of those people who thinks about me every now and again, even if I no longer cross his path ever day. I am lucky to have friends like Ed.
My best friend. He is ensconced in his new job. You'd think that would mean I'd hear from him less. But, thankfully, it's just the opposite. Now that he has a routine again, we have a routine again. And while he has a new job, we're both still in the same industry, so we still have that in common. It's comfortable, natural. None of the stress of the conversations we had when we spoke less often. I wake up in the morning and I'm happier. When I was freaking out about all my family drama, he was very available to listen. I have my best friend back. We're still us.
Perry March. Poor SOB. He was convicted on all counts related to his wife's disappearance and death. Yet he was deprived of his day in the Court TV sun. From opening arguments, through prosecution and defense testimony, onto closing arguments and the beginning of the deliberation watch, Perry was the brightest daytime star on that cable tv channel. And then, Wednesday night, after 10 years, some skinny perv in Thailand admits to the JonBenet Ramsey slaying and steals all his thunder. I read that Perry is on death watch. No wonder.
Brent. He's 19, the oldest child of my lunatic older sister. Because he lives 2000 miles away and because he is the son of my lunatic older sister, I really have not had much, if anything, to do with him. Last time I saw him was (I think) in the summer of 2001. As I recall, he had no real interest in me then at all. So imagine my surprise when on Tuesday he called me as soon as he arrived for the Big Baptism. "Hi, Laurie. This is Brent. I want to have lunch with you tomorrow. What train and bus do I take?" Seems that now that he's almost an adult, beginning a new phase in his life (starting classes at the community college), he has decided to reach out to his rogue Aunt Laurie. Part of it was curiosity, part of it was to annoy his lunatic mother. Still, I was surprised that he did it and have to acknowledge that it was courageous of him. Both he and his younger sister, who came along for the ride, are attractive and literate. I was impressed. And sad, too. They really do hate their mother. I certainly understand it; all the best people hate their mother. But still, to think of those three unhappy people rattling around in that house together … it's sad. I gave both kids my email address, just in case they ever want to contact me again.
Ed. My former boss. We got together for dinner this week. He brought his daughter's college graduation photos, gave me an update on his health maladies, bragged about his wife's new-found professional success. He even had a little present for me -- a DVD similar to VH1's I Love the 70s. I left with a really good feeling. Ed's a good friend. When I was unemployed a few years ago, Ed made sure I had freelance work. He's one of those people who thinks about me every now and again, even if I no longer cross his path ever day. I am lucky to have friends like Ed.
My best friend. He is ensconced in his new job. You'd think that would mean I'd hear from him less. But, thankfully, it's just the opposite. Now that he has a routine again, we have a routine again. And while he has a new job, we're both still in the same industry, so we still have that in common. It's comfortable, natural. None of the stress of the conversations we had when we spoke less often. I wake up in the morning and I'm happier. When I was freaking out about all my family drama, he was very available to listen. I have my best friend back. We're still us.
Perry March. Poor SOB. He was convicted on all counts related to his wife's disappearance and death. Yet he was deprived of his day in the Court TV sun. From opening arguments, through prosecution and defense testimony, onto closing arguments and the beginning of the deliberation watch, Perry was the brightest daytime star on that cable tv channel. And then, Wednesday night, after 10 years, some skinny perv in Thailand admits to the JonBenet Ramsey slaying and steals all his thunder. I read that Perry is on death watch. No wonder.
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