The dreams are all family related. I discovered on the state's website that both my mother and grandmother have unclaimed funds floating about out there. (According to the state treasurer, 1 in 4 Illinoisans does.) My mom's is less than $200, my grandmother's looks to be about $500. I may let my mom's just go. After all, after I dig up all the paperwork and copy everything and go to a notary and mail it, I'll get a check for $150, that I have to split three ways. Which means I'll have to traipse back to the post office. And deal with my older sister, which is reliably unpleasant and always galling. And I will be the one taxed on the $150. Sounds like a lot of work for very little pay off. I had figured my aunt would just pocket my grandmother's money. After all, the lady died nearly 20 years ago. My aunt wondered if I thought she should split the money among my grandmother's 5 heirs (herself, me and my two sisters, and my odious Uncle Jim). I haven't answered her yet because just thinking about this leaves me feeling tense.
Then there's my cousin Rose. You know, the cousin who loves me that I lied to. I don't want Rose staying with me, but I don't like lying and I certainly don't want to hurt her. This is causing me massive stress.
So lately I've been waking up upset, with vague recollections of nightmare family scenarios. Just like when I was in high school.
The only teenage irritants I'm missing are zits and The Periodic Table of Elements.
I have nightmares a lot, especially when I am worried about something. Plus in my dreams, the things I worry about seem so much worse! For instance I always dream about my mom being angry at me and yelling at me, which happens a lot in real life and usually I'm just, like, "Ugh," about it. But in my dreams she's always angry at me, and I'm screaming at her and bawling my head off and I can even feel physical pain! Hmmm... Dreams are weird.
ReplyDeleteOh no! I am sorry to hear of your distress--mental and physical.
ReplyDeleteugh...hope you feel better soon...or maybe see the doctor?
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Heartburns a nightmare. I've had IBS since my 20's and can sympathise totally. I need GP prescription medicine for it now....and it's not so bad with the windy side of things!
ReplyDeleteI know family crap is a huge thorn in your side, Gal. That little bit of money is so not worth the agita, as you've already deduced.
ReplyDeleteSaying this with love: flogging yourself over the Rose situation doesn't serve you or her. It is what it is and that's it. It's really okay for you to not want to spend a long time with her.
Have you considered removing grains from your diet to address the gastro issues? Take a look at the book "Wheat Belly" for some interesting info about this issue.
Sounds miserable. I hope things settle down in your life and your tummy.
ReplyDeleteGet all the money, donate it to charity and don't tell a soul. Problem solve, weight lifted.
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