I Don't Wanna!

I'm just in a shitty mood. I worked out in the afternoon, took a shower, and felt a little better for a little while. But then, oh, I dunno …

I'm fidgety, unsettled, unhappy, and I don't really know why. A lot of issues are flip-flopping around in my head, like a fish struggling on the bottom of the boat. Much of this regards my family, whom I love but don't especially like, but none of it is new.

I realize that this freelance project I'm doing for my friend Kathleen could be the entree to a new job and will be, at the very least, a way to buy myself a tablet and pay down my credit card. But I just don't feel like working on it.

My TT this week will be about vacations. Maybe that's what I need to do -- plan a trip. Or maybe I need a drink.

I know what I should do, which is make a dent in this project. But I don't wanna!