Saturday, October 19, 2024

Saturday 9

 Saturday 9: Autumn in New York (1947)

Unfamiliar with this week's song? Hear it here.

1) In this song, Frank Sinatra sings that autumn in New York is inviting. How are you enjoying fall where you are? This is my favorite time of year! Today may reach 70ยบ and the trees are showing some color.

2) He tells us the "canyons of steel" (aka skyscrapers) make him feel like he's home. What's something you love about your neighborhood? It's so walkable. There's a corner I pass several times a week -- seems it's en route to everywhere I'm headed -- that has a church on either side of the street. There's something uplifting about looking up between the steeples and seeing the clear blue sky.

3) Frank Sinatra was self-conscious about the scar on his cheek. The doctor used forceps to deliver him and left a mark. Tell us about one of your scars. I have a long scar that begins just beneath my belly button and runs south as far as it will go. It's from my hysterectomy. (Damn! There goes my Sports Illustrated swimsuit cover!)

4) Frank was a creature of habit. Every time he visited Patsy's Italian Restaurant in New York he ordered the same dessert: lemon ricotta torte. Do you enjoy trying new dishes, or do you prefer to stick with your old favorites? I'm like Frank. My tummy can be awfully sensitive and so I tend to stick with what I know is safe.

5) "Autumn in New York" was written by New Yorker Vernon Duke during a hot summer vacation in Westport, CT. Have you ever been homesick? I'm homesick every time I go away. I miss my cats. I miss The Cubs. I enjoy vacations, but I always want to come home.

6) In 1947, when this recording made the Top 30, Daniel and Patricia were the most popular baby names. Are there any Daniels or Patricias in your life? There have been, but not right now.

7) Elton John was born in 1947. When you think of Elton John, what's the first song that comes to mind? Buh-buh-buh-buh Bennie and the Jets.

8) Radio was America's most accessible form of entertainment in 1947 and a mystery, The Adventures of Ellery Queen, was one of the most popular shows. Do you enjoy mysteries? Yes. I just finished one of the Andy Carpenter mysteries by David Rosenfelt and enjoyed it thoroughly.

9) Random question: What were you most excited about when you woke up this morning? Game 5 of the Yankees and Guardians. My favorite-most ball player is one game away from the World Series! Anthony Rizzo may have two fractured fingers, but he's going for another ring. Love him, love him, love him!

The teal glove helps accommodate his painful fingers



Frown turns upside down

I admit it: I've been struggling more than I imagined I would. Losing my dear friends, John and Henry, has broken my heart. Yes, it is a comfort to know that they are both happy and whole again in Heaven. I know neither of them would want me to be sad and so I look for joy in every day (and find it). 

But it's the loneliness. I miss them. I met John when I was 23, Henry when I was 34. I'm now 66. That represents a lot of love. So many birthdays, Thanksgivings and Christmases. So many memories. As October turns to November and December, I feel so alone without them.

But I am not alone, and buckle up, because here comes some joy. I am getting support and finding inclusion from the loved ones who remain.

  Big birthday fun. I mentioned to Joanna that this will be my first birthday in for-fucking-ever without my dear old friends and boy, has she ever jumped into the breach! First we will tour Chicago's Christkindlmarket on its Opening Day (coincidentally, my birthday). Then we're having lunch at The Walnut Room, by their 45-foot tree! That 3:00 PM reservation was not easy for her to snag. Chicagoans have been making The Walnut Room part of their holiday tradition for more than 115 years, and at first we couldn't get in on the date requested. By Joanna would not be deterred! She kept checking every day, in case there was a cancellation, and voila! I am so grateful for her commitment.

  Thanksgiving at Cooper's Hawk. John used to organize this and he called it "Orphan's Thanksgiving." For more than a decade there were three of us. Now there will be two. I wasn't sure Gregory would want to do this without him, but he does and I'm thankful for that. I suppose this event might be sad, but I've had so much change! I want this tradition to continue. John used to tease that the reason for this gettogether wasn't Thanksgiving, it was to get me into something other than a Cubs t-shirt. I will dress up again in his memory.

  It's a Wonderful Life at The Music Box. It's a Christmas classic at one of Chicago's oldest movie theaters. Santa himself shows up before the film and leads us in song -- and, if we're lucky, we can snag the candy he tosses to us. This will be my third time doing this with Elaine, and she's excited. We've already got our tickets.

You know, perspective is a funny thing. I think of Joanna and Elaine as "new" friends because, compared to Henry and John, they are. But I've known them for years (11 for Joanna, 8 for Elaine). My shrink pointed out that not everyone maintains friendships as long as I do, and she reminds me that I now have history with these women and that's worth celebrating, in and of itself.

  Christmas at my niece's house. For more than 20 years I spent at least part of the holidays in Key West with Henry. It was important to him, and he'd refer to my visit as his vacation. When she heard Henry had died, my niece ordained that I now spend Christmas at her new home in Michigan. She has declared herself the new matriarch of our clan, said she's hosting Christmas for the first time, and she wants me there. I get such a kick out of her. She's so bossy! (Trust me, no one orders me around like she does, which is pretty bold coming from someone I diapered.) But I am looking forward to spending Christmas with her, her husband and my nephew. Yes, my sister (her mom) will be there. But I'm confident it will be OK because niece has deigned it so and believe me, you don't want to cross her on this.

So now I'm facing forward with more optimism. Yes, it makes me sad when I look at my holiday gift list and see neither Henry's nor John's names there. Certainly I still miss them every day. But I'm buoyed by the love and support I still have.