30 Days

Day 27 :: What’s the best thing going for you right now? My outlook. I'm suffering with sadness right now, but it will pass and I'll be OK. Because just now my cat Charlotte checked in on me, carefully grooming my right thumb, and it made me happy. As long as the little things still lift my spirit, I'll be fine.

Day 28 :: What if you got pregnant, (or got someone pregnant), what would you do? This question annoys me because it assumes I'm both sexually active and young enough to get pregnant. We're not all potential breeders, about to board the ark in pairs, you know.

Day 29 :: Something you hope to change about yourself and why. My laziness and complete lack of discipline. Because it gets in the way of my happiness and contentment.

It is what it is

This is the floral arrangement I'm having sent to the funeral home for my uncle's service on Friday. I won't be there. Because our family patriarch will be. And he molested me.

He and my uncle were not close. In fact, they clashed often over the years. Recently, when told of my uncle's desperate straits, he conveyed to my mother that he really didn't care much.

Yet he will, no doubt, be in the front row at the service because that's the kind of 14k pig and hypocrite he is. I'll be at my desk, at work. And my family will be fine with this because maintaining the illusion of a "normal" American family is more important than doing what's fair ... or what my uncle would have wanted.

Oh well, it is what it is.

I could go to the service, of course. And risk a scene with the old pervert. At which point I might start screaming. I don't need that kind of stress and crap while I mourn someone who actually mattered in my life. So I'm going to protect myself by staying away.

If there's anything that matters to me more than my family's bullshit image of itself, it's my sanity.

Movie Monday -- Movies that Make You Want to Travel

Share the movies that made you want to get up and go, linking back here at The Bumbles. And don't forget to visit your fellow participants!

For once I'm going with very recent movies (two are in theaters now) instead of classics.

The Town. The aerial shots of Boston, plus Fenway (which practically has a costarring role) and the car chases down the narrow streets, made me realize I haven't been in that great city since in 2004 -- and that's too long.

Sex and the City. I mean the first movie, not the second. (Part of why SATC2 failed is they moved the action to Abu Dhabi, where they don't belong.) In the first movie, "the city" is, of course, NYC -- Carrie's true love, which is so seductive even Jennifer Hudson has to leave the midwest to give it a try. That scene at New Year's, when Carrie makes her way to Miranda's apartment, is especially moving to me as one who navigates another great (but significantly smaller) city via public transportation. I can't imagine living in New York, but whenever I see it on screen I long to return for a double-shot of urban glamor.

Morning Glory. See above.